within_me

2009-04-07T21:27:00.000-05:00

subra, sasi, pavitra and puva got me this oh-so-sweet projectshop bag! (: is it me or do my friends know me well?! HAHA! (: they are loves! and i was such so speechless when i got it. thanks a lot my babe and hunks! (: yayy! (:
oh- you know shawn's gift?! he said if i dont meet him soon enough, he will pass it to another girl and she will term him as a sweet guy! gross?! HAHA! (: and i told him i will punch her. and he said dont ruin his chances with her. seriously?! HAHAHA! this weekend! (:

over at yousuff's place last saturday! (: because it was his niece 40th day on this pretty, pretty earth! (: she was sleeping half the time! HAHA! (: got her this cute dress and matching shoes! and qaleefathullah's mum made a bracelet just for her! and yousuff promised that he will take picture of her wearing all of that! HAHA! (: and show us, of course. good food! and ohmygoodness lovely people! (: his family is so funnyy! like not mockery or formal-funny kinda thing! like sincere, hearty ones! (: felt right at home! (: he has cats! ohmygod, right?! HAHA! (: such a fat mother cat and 4 kids! one stray cat and a paralyzed one! wow noww! thats some place to live! HAHA! but yes, i wasnt very comfortable with them upclose at me! it was when we were about to leave when i touched her! she's huge! HAHA! (: her name is google. (:
off we went to the pool place near his house! (: and the guys played. i just sat there and watched! HAHA! its not very cool to play pool in your traditional clothes! HAHAHA! (: anand made me. funny moments captured everytime. with pictures! (: oh yes, the loves i was with was anand, qaleefathullah, yousuff, thondres, prabhu, sara, puva! (: aminah dropped by for awhile! (: it was great seeing her too! after many donkey years! (: she's a sweet girl, yes! (:

i love all of you! really! (: all of you! (:

so we can finally fly off into NASA.

2009-03-28T18:34:00.000-05:00

my 21st was beyond awesome! im not even kidding!
i was surprised and given shocks! and got so many things that im speechless!

sharon, prabhu, waheedah, erika, 'ammar, desmond, luke! (:
such sweethearts lahh! my first celebration! (: i was made to believe a plan that was never about to take place! and i was so annoyed with work. and the mastermind was sharon! (: as i was whining away about my work to her- she stopped right at newyorknewyork. and obviously i was like 'huh?' because we were suppose to go bowling! like where to bowl at newyorknewyork! HAHA! (: and then i saw waheedah, erika and this funny indian boy covering his face snapping pictures away! OH MY GOD! i cried lahhhhz! i was utterly speechless. like blank. and gone! HAHA! (: after much odd-picture taking moments- ate and crapped! (: and i was treated! (: awww! (: friends made the food even more delicious. as i was all ready to get out of the place to meet the rest, a birthday cake! (: the crew there started singing! another round of tears! HAHAHA! (: are they sweet or angels?! HAHA! (: goodness gracious god! (: after much cooling down, made our way to esplanade to catch some mosaic performances! luke and 'ammar joined us then. nearing the end- desmond joined! all to celebrate! and desmond got me this super pretty notebook! i was so speechles. HAHA! the blessings he gave was hilarious! HAHA! (: took funny pictures and had a beautiful dinner. (: i was so bloody touched and happy lahh! still am! so sweet! (: arghhh! im blessed! (:

the next day i was suppose to meet anand alone cause i cannot go out on Sunday Family Day. (: he made me wear heels and walk all the way to clementi stadium from clementi station. not funny at all. i was so annoyed! it was freaking hot! and i had bloody blisters! thus, i showed faces. then nur and shawn joined us- which is perfectly normal cause thats how we meet up. randomly. we went ahead to play pool where i so owned nur! oh my god, right?! HAHA! (: shawn is just a pro. but even before an hour was up- all of them rushed cause they wanted to bowl? i wasnt really happy cause it was a waste to not fully utilise the hour! HAHAHA! (: as we were waiting for the lift to go down- HAYL CAME! OH MY GOD! HAHAHAHA! (: i was so shocked and kept asking anand like whats happening. (yes, i was still lost!). HAHA! (: i was so happy to see her after like 839650198 years! (: but i took it as anand trying to be sweet and all then we went inside the bowling place. this whole group starting singing birthday song! OH MY GOD! ARGHHH! HAHA! (: qaleefathullah, yousuff, thondres, prabhu, faiz, puva! with a cake! again, i was too moved and cried! like loser?! HAHA! (: anand went through so much trouble to bring them altogether! (: HAHA! (: oh oh- prabhu, thondres, qaleefathullah, yousuff got me this so adorable bracelet! awww! (:
but this time, we did bowl! we had two rounds with two teams! we had superbly comical moments, weird winning tactics, odd ways of bowling etc! i had a horrible second round! all of them cursed me to lose ahhh! and sasi, naven, daya joined us too! (: so much of laughter, attention from so many and just pure happiness! (: after that- we went to ayer rajah to have our dinner! kenghee came as well! woahh now! HAHAHA! after some issues ahh! HAHAHAH! (: (: guess who joined us then?! nicolette! GOD! HAHA! (: after a year or so?! i was so amazingly happy ahh! all of us caught up with each other's lives! nicolette got me a bouquet of roses! (: god! she took close to two hours to reach clementi! (: HAHA! that effort. by then only a few of us were left... so, we went under puva's block to play some card games! hayl, shawn, nur, kenghee, anand, puva, thondres! there MI faiz came! HAHA! so many ahh! HAHAHAHA! (: we had odd forfeits and a blissful time together! (:
after that- anand, shawn, kenghee, nur, faiz, thondres and i left to see aliff, stanley for a while. on our way there- ghost stories! HAHA! (: how cool is that?! awww! HAHAHA! and i really wanted to be home for my birthday! (: so, we left about 11plus? (:
anand is a sweetheart! i almost ruined my own surprise! (: the things he did! woww! im still so speechless! and do not even ask me what he got me for my birthday! HAHAHAHAH! its wayy too much! 21 gifts. (: i love you! (: i really do. (:

and my birthday at home! (: for us to keep. (:

so, it was thursday! the dreadful fypeee day! HAHA! sharon wanted me to accompany her to get stuff for herself. shopping! made our way to plaza sing! (: woohooo! so much of stories, whinings, unwindings and whatnot! (: and of all times, she wanted to have swensen's. like whats abnormal about that, yes? so we went in... and syazrul afiq was there! ARGHHH! why do i always fall for tricks?! HAHAHAHA! but it was a sweet surprise. and i started yakking away cause i was too in shock! and i got pretty, pretty, pretty gifts from them! prints notebook and this musical box that has the tune of "happy birthday song"! a very good ice-cream treat from the sweethearts! (: god lahh! i didnt cry when i saw him there but i did when i opened the gift! like they remembered, you know?! HAHA! (: his secret wish to see me cry ahh! (: woohooooo! (: but this plan was suppose to take place on monday! HAHA! (: which i stupidly cancelled upon! im so sorry, you guys! i made them wait over 5 hours and travel around singapore! and then mr. syazrul afiq had to go off! thus, sharon & i went to burger king got the cushions and just slacked! without buying a thing! just talking and doing impulsive things! (: as the night approached, she sent me off all the way to sembawang and went back home! god, no?! HAHAHAHA! (:

why no pictures? all of the above are surprises! and obviously, i wouldnt have brought a camera then! HAHA! (: they did capture some but i dont have them with me now! but i dont need them to remember my 21st. (: i got beautiful messages, calls of wishes! (:
i just really want to thank each and everyone of you who took your precious time to make my birthday a heavenly one! the thought! the gifts are added incentives! but the people- i love you so much! i swear you wouldnt know how much! (: i couldnt have been happier anywhere, anymore or with anything else! (: i never planned my 21st but even if i did, it wouldnt have turned out this perfect. (:

thanks a lot! really! god! thank you! (:

...i'm thankful for the blessing...

2009-03-01T18:01:00.001-06:00

my friday morning was greeted with awesome fypeee team mates! (: had our breakfast over at mac's and went down to the library! we settled down at the reference section. apparently, we made a lot of noise! HAHA! (: we were asked to shut up/ lower down our volume by this one guy. but we made even more noise. we werent inconsiderate lahhh- we just wanted to annoy him! HAHA! (: amongst all this- we completed what we wanted to finish. drawings, reasonings, explanations. and thinking about our future. arent you actually worried about what is going to happen once you graduate? its already the third year! but hey, at least we're prepared for the tuesday's meeting! HAHA! (:
and off to speee for anand and his team's soccer competition! (: it was blissful! awesome games, superb goals, funny moments on the field, happy times, eating, stoning, rotting, arguements, retarded yet very sensible conversations etc. (: but the intervals between matches just made me want to bury myself at the grandstand. the team that came together is such a lovelove bunch! they annoy the crap out of each other but they defend each other when another party interferes. HAHA! they sure do love each other, yes.
his secondary school friends. (: they really mean so much! (: qaleefathullah, yusuff, imraan! (: such sweethearts, im not even saying it for the sake of it! (: and they mean so much good for anand and i. (: arent they loves?! oh. my. god. (: those words that they told me will always be so close to my heart. and i so wont tell anyone ahh! (: im so blessed to call them my friends as well! cause i know i can always call them in times of trouble or even for fun! HAHA! (: thank you anand. i love you! (: you're one special fella with more amazing people in your life whom you brought to mine. (:
army men, police man, civil defence man! (: am i protected or what?! HAHA! (: the really comical things that they do. showing each other their trainings, 'charging' each other and scenarios! HAHA! (: uniformed men are woohooooo! HAHAHA! (: and did you know anand can really plan? such a manager/ captain sia he! HAHA! it'd've been funny to see him take the penalty! HAHA! (: the whole match ended around 11plus. i do not even want to start on why- it was suppose to be 9! photos were taken. and team qaleefathullah came in second! HAHA! (: the name is another story on its own!

my friday cannot be any better! (: and i had a blast! tell me why would i need to smoke, drink, club?! HAHA! (: cheyy!

life is a maze.

2009-02-20T12:38:00.000-06:00

&&&- i cant remember nuts of what happened the last few days! (: lets recall the memorable ones, shall we?! (:
i know i've started w o r k i n g . like damnit! its not funny when you still get lost whenever you're going to the same place! and i always have to call up someone for directions. i dont even know how i end up at some places.
my fypeee has taken a toll! (: like so much to do. and so much to write. its actually depressing to know that you cannot use colours in your logbook! like just blue or black. how will you even get the motivation to write? thus, my logbook has been updated only with two meetings. (: &&&- the literature review can kill someone. (:

there was some amazing meet ups! bless me! (: met up with the afiq! (: airport timeeeee! and there was a lot of walking done aimlessly! then to woodwoodlands! (: nonsensical talking, weird encounters and a lot of happiness in the air! awesome? yeap. (: and whoever said friday the 13th must be horrible?
my valentine was splendid. (: with pretty meet up with fypeee mates- sweet breakfast and weird times! HAHA! and off to a day out with anand & his friends. (: soccerrr! more like watching them play soccer. the aftermath of the match was great. it ended with a draw- sexy goals and superb assists! the lunch/dinner was fantastic. the games played, the laughter shared, the moments had and the pictures taken! HAHA! (: cause its romantic like that. (:

my 30th was spent at the chalet with great company! from the 16th till 18th! same chalet as the last time round with most of the same people but with a few new ones! old changi hospital all over again! but not creepy at all. sad? it felt like we were living in malaysia with all of their food products! HAHA! (: it hurt when we had to rush for fypeee meeting on the 17th in the morning! oh oh- we played soccer! girls versus guys! and we seriously thrashed them lahhh! like 16-12! it was played over like 2 hours?! HAHA! (: and that invited certain issues! HAHA! had a lot of card games- cause we're gamblers! HAHAHA! (: im so going to miss the seniors, like seriously. prabhu, desmond, khalis, hanis, waheedah, luke, muiling! they made it worthwhile with all their antics and madness! they are such loves. (:
anand time on the 18th! he was suppose to study but i suck at being his study-partner- no proper table either. his sprained ankle didnt make the things any better! yes, he still plays soccer no matter what and pretends like its all okayy! had an awesome dinner with just stories. a n a n d a - all the best & good luck for your papers, yes! you're going to so rock them because you're an indian genius! (: HAHA! im so not mocking ahh! i admire his determination and the drive to study! sometimes, i wonder. (: HAHA! (:

thursday was fypeee time! i practically just stared and stoned! till the design of experiments came by! HAHA! the shapes made us a happy bunch. (: notes notes notes! and no, dont think the notes are of no use! do not make fun cause i'll make you carry them! yes, its not light! HAHA! (:
todayyy! (: ohmygoodness! stationery shopping! HAHA! (: and time to update online log, finish up certain stuffs! its all good. (:

saturday! (: workshop! &&&- fypeee! HAHAHAHA! why does it sound like there's a lot of 'fyp' in the entries?! sending mails, receiving them, follow-ups, issues etc. its funny how i've never mentioned my CCAs, yes? HAHA! (: and there's already so much to be done next week! im so excited lahhh! HAHA! (: this isnt holidays.

and i'm gonna fall.

2009-02-10T20:25:00.000-06:00

okayy, im suppose to do this in facebook! but the damn thing just got cleared cause i clicked on something accidentally! they should so save it lahhh! annoying, much?!
but i feel bad- so i shall do them here! cause i dont like not replying back tags. i feel mean! HAHA! (:

*Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are suppose to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged.
[weilinglingling & 'ammar! theTwentyFive stuff! i think i've done this before?! god-knows ah! HAHA! (: here goes nothing.]

1. i always click on something accidentally and start everything from scratch. slap me, please! HAHA! (:
2. i have a lot of folders in my notebook!
3. i have a lot of notebooks! HAHA! (:
4. and a lot of pens, pencils, erasers, highlighters, postits- stationery! like boxes of them!
5. taking down notes is such an in-thing for me since ever! (:
6. i must always have these specfic things with me, all the time! they weigh a ton!
7. ipod, wallet, handphone- are essentials. i will go back all the way home to get them back!
8. i am very _ _ _ _ _ conscious. but i do not judge. (:
9. i do not change my likes and dislikes very quickly. once im addicted, i will be for very long. games, food, music etc.
10. i hate being late! but i dont mind waiting. (:
11. i like odd and even numbers for different issues. HAHA! (:
12. i will watch the re-runs of friends over & over & over again & again & again.
13. friendships, love, family, god- i will never give up on them! (:
14. autobiographies are so cool! and so are books! (:
15. i never learn! like for a lot of things.
16. i like 16. (:
17. i can live with just coke! (: HAHA! (:
18. i like 18. (:
19. no, im not stating i like certain numbers for the sake of it. they are precious. (:
20. makes you feel oldoldold! not funny.
21. even older! HAHA! (:
22. people misjudge me! HAHAHA! (: and its super funny. (:
23. im taking very long to complete this, although i've did this just now. goodness?
24. i enjoy taking pictures of everyone and everything! (: and giving odd captions!
25. i annoy many because of the above. really, go ask! HAHA! (:

*Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real... nothing made up! If the person before you had the same initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/ girl name question.
['ammar! he enjoys making me do such notes! HAHA! (: and this is so weird but why not, right?!]

1: What is your name? Ben. HAHA! (:
2: A four-letter word? Bury?
3: A boy's name? Benedict! nice name, no?! HAHA! (:
4: A girl's name? Blair. Wicked! (:
5: An occupation? Barber! HAHAHA! this is funny! (:
6: A colour? Burgundy. awww....
7: Something you'll wear? Burberry! Cheyy?!
8: ['ammar, this is missing! HAHA!]
9: A food? Beehoon! whattheheck. (:
10: Something found in the bathroom? Bubblebath! weird question, seriously!
11: A place? Belgium.
12: A reason for being late? Bus brokedown! HAHAHA! B-siaaa! (:
13: Something you'd shout? 'Basket!'. really! (:
14: A movie title? Basic-Instinct! woohoooo! (: HAHA! (:
15: Something you drink? Barley! (:
16: A musical group? Backstreet Boys! ohmygod, rightt! HAHA! (:
17: An animal? Beaver.
18: A street name? Bishan Street? i dont knowww!
19: A type of car? Beetle? i know its volkswagen beetle. but i've been doing so awesome for all of the above!
20: The title of a song? Bicycle Race! HAHAHA! (: amazing. (:

bless thy soul! (:
&&&- as usual, im not going to tag anyone! cause whoever wants to do the above, go ahead! (: you wont be sued. (: theAlphabetGame was so fun, fun, fun! HAHA! (:

i need to get back to my fypeeee! (: i can so be excited with my 3, 4, 5 for theTwentyFive! (: HAHA! (:

here we are.

2009-02-04T12:06:00.000-06:00

the things i make the anand go through. (: he got me addicted to spotthedifference and wordtwist and i give him petsociety! HAHA! (: you is the best, anand! (:

sending emails, going crazy with deadlines, awesome photoshoots, retarded discussions, amazing meetups, sweet outings and nothing but rotting- my life is excellent. (: HAHA! (: i've learnt a lot, like really. you wouldnt know what i've been through! HAHA! mysterious? retarded. (: and i've done the craziest thing! HAHAHA! (:
i wish to workkk! but the whole routine is 'oh-my-goodness-kill-me-please'. but i will. and then i'll be too cool to blog here! HAHA! i should really stop talking nonsense. oh yeahh- fypeee! (: so exciting! please ask me the topic that we're doing on! HAHA! we sound so intelligent. (: tuesdaytuesdaytuesday! (:

or is it only gossip?

2009-01-24T02:49:00.000-06:00

heyy you. (:
school's officially over! (: and it feels all rightey?! HAHA! maybe because school will still be frequently visited for various reasons! (: meetings, meetings, meetings! (: and there are so many deadlines to meet. am i excited or what! HAHA! (: i think i will go psychotic. (:
i dont even wish to blog ah! its so tiring! and annoying as well. but this blog has been with me for a very long thing. from crappy moments to happy ones. (: and why am i saying this? i dont know. maybe because i took an hour to continue updating!
i miss my bestfriend! ): it has been soooo long since we've last met. i think this is really depressing. whine with me, please. (: and anand is busy with his exams and attachment. action eh! HAHA! (: he makes me go crazy and keeps me in place too! odd? (: &&&- afiqqqq! (: congrats! (: champions ahh! top of the world, no?! (: now, its about time you enjoyyy! woohooo! (:
i feel that last buses should last till about 12.30am! its painful to pay the midnight charges for cab! and it sucks even more to take trains! i do not fancy trains- i've said that too many times! HAHA! (: and also, people should stop staring like i owe them a living. and they still dont have manners! im not annoyed! (: im just. (:

why does this post seems so all over?! and i dont wish to upload photos! HAHA! mood-swings! (:

just keep playing that song.

2009-01-19T20:09:00.000-06:00

redbull makes me a happy girl! it makes me have spasms! HAHAHA! (: and my mum finds that very funny and she laughs like crazy. my brother thinks pink ties are cool. and i think its awesome on him! chey?! my hair is in a mess. and all i do is clip it up. retarded? dont careee!
i think youtube is cool. (: and i love reading autobiographies! (:
and i think im going to slouch to death with the weight i carry on my shoulders. hurts like crap sia! HAHA! (: i love diaries/ notebooks/ organizers! oh my god! (: once thursday and friday is done- goodbye to year 2, my loves! (:

i think my class is the most awesome, amazing one ever! HAHA! (: i bet you will agree to! (: woohoooo! (:
and this is just for the sake of it! (:

... i admit.

2009-01-10T23:12:00.000-06:00

so, my 2009 has been going awesome! (:
with wonderful dates and great people! (: but school is still very much draggy. i do not wish to learn about analytical instrumentation, polymer & composite science, immunology or chemistry! kill me! HAHA! (: yes, those are my modules! and i didnt have any idea about what they had to offer till like after a few weeks into the semester! (:
year3 is going to be awesome! (: fypeee all done and ready to go! (: we'll most probably get our first choice? i hope. its so biology! HAHA! i hate physics! (: maybe because i never took it! (: my team mates are love! (: sharon, 'ain, sinyee & joanna! (: oh, i wont have a life during the upcoming holidays! but im loving it! (: prints-prints-prints! (: with attendance book! HAHA! (: the things we want! (:
procastination has taken over. and i hate it! this wont be happening anymore from next week onwards! and my handphone sucks! the reception just goes off and the messages are not sent successfully- at times! its labelled 'annoying' all over! (: but my family thinks its funny that i have to carry this really bright orange-covered handphone with no screen! they love making me look like a retard! HAHA! (: but quite fun eh?! (:

my bag weighs a ton! and i slouch way too much! my hair is stupid. im having horrible migraines very often now!
who says im not enjoying my life?! (:

... she might leave soon.

2009-01-01T23:20:00.001-06:00

and happy new year to all of you out there, yes! (:
please do not kill me or be annoyed with me if i didnt reply your msgs. that is only because my phonebook is still not updated and thus, i dont know who you are. and i dont wanna ruin the moment and check who is it. spoiler, no?! HAHA! (:

my first day of the new year has been amazing! (: i swear. my family rocks! (: i love them a whole load! but its no fun if they force you to eat and make you sleep early. especially when you hear your name being called for the 8729th time to go to bed. HAHA! (: but they still rock my little egypt world. (: such sweethearts. (:
and my friends! like oh my god! they are seriously the best! HAHA! (: im sure all of us love to showoff their friends. but i love it even more! (: they bring the flowers, kittens, candies to my life! (: they dont kid when they say they will be there 24/7! i swear i love you! (: HAHA! (: and i dont swear so easily. i bet you know who you are. idiots! (: HAHA! (:
my boyf. (: now i can safely say we've been through crap! and we survived. action?! HAHA! (: and i love the fact that when i check my phone every morning- your call/ msg will be the first to be there. thats like the best way to begin my day, yes! it makes me smile and makes me look forward to almost everything, except studies! HAHA! kidding! (:

apart from the best of the best of the best people in my life which you dont have! HAHA! (: this year is a major year for my studies and for everything else. im like so excited for fypeee! HAHA! arent you?! and to bring about major improvements to many issues! (: wish me and everyone involved luck! anyways, i will go on yakking away. yes, keep nodding! (:

2009: god bless us all. (:
why jinx it, yes?! (:

in the meantime stay...

2008-12-29T13:52:00.001-06:00

i miss her. (:

2009 will be here in no time. (: i dont wish to have a lot hope for that year. i just wish to let it be. (:
this will be my last week of holidays before school starts. and with three more weeks- we'll be getting nearer to year3. excited, yes. scared, even more. my second week of holidays have been amazingly awesome! i got to spend my time with those who really matter. &&&- you'll see me work during the ten weeks of holidays. a secret, that will be. (:
new year's eve. (: come to think of it- im actually scared of it. but im definitely looking forward to it. because you still matter. (: i cannot wait for it but with no strings attached, yes. (:
i still find facebook to be a little annoying! HAHA! i know i can ignore invitations to applications- but dont you still find it annoying?! friendster is so simple. all i do with facebook is accept friend requests and ignore all invitations. (: oh- reply comments as well. whichever! till i find something exciting to do with it- i will continue to get annoyed with it. and i prefer the old layout! HAHA! a little too late to whine about it ah? (: i see my friend's friend's comment to my friend. for? HAHA!
i do not wish to reflect on 2008. same old stories. and if you know me well enough- you would know it for yourself. (: 2009 will be different, loves. (: and i do not have any new year resolutions. HAHA! my 2008's resolutions went down the drain. damnit! and no, you wouldnt get to know it. HAHA! (:
i am going to upload photos and rename them. the cheap thrills. (:

oh, what was i thinking?

2008-12-20T02:29:00.006-06:00

and 2008 is definitely ending with a twist in my story.

the dates im looking forward to:
sat: dhoby ghaut with sharon. ikea with sharon & afiq. yishun with afiq.
sun: family day. (:
~~mon: birdpark. (:~~
wed: bestfriend's back! (: camp-shopping- sharon. ~~prabhu & khalis.~~
thurs: christmas!
friday & sat: camp-out.
sat: woodlands with afiq.
sun: familylove. (:

hayl, shawn, sharon & afiq. (:
whatever happened to happily-ever-after?! i need some sleep before i get high!
i really want to get slurpee. (:

and my family. (:
if im an adopted child- i bet the family would have thrown me out long time ago! HAHA! for all the things i make them go through... the way the show me their love is adorable. we're cool like that. (: i ask the weirdest questions to my mum. and sometimes i wonder how she has all the energy each time to answer me. (:

...but can't escape from you.

2008-12-15T22:36:00.000-06:00

apparently, i dont need till the end of the month. (: cause sometimes fate does all your work!
today's the end for a new beginning.

shawnnny is doing good! my NS bestfriend! (: HAHA! (:
and he is showing off by saying how much he has improved. he is very strong now. action? he is getting his rifle tomorrow! HAHA! and he enjoys firedrills! i really cannot wait to see him on the 24th! like oh my god, please! HAHA! (: yes, this para alone has showed a lot of my excitement. (: im really glad he is doing well there! (:

oh, yes! holidays have started! (: and its no fun with no cash. like literally. is there like any job i can do from home and earn a lot? no conmen jobs, please! HAHA! (: but these three weeks will be put to awesome use. shall we work on this together?! (: why do i always sound like i am really talking to someone?! HAHA! even now. i scare myself eh. (:

talkin', talkin', talkin', talk.

2008-12-05T02:20:00.000-06:00

it sucks to know what is actually happening behind the smiles and happiness of people. and just because you put up a facade and walk around like you dont care at all, doesnt make any difference to the issues. things are going to change. and i've got only till the end of this month. its funny how everyone assumes the same. (: HAHA! after so long, something's terrifying me. because im cool! (: HAHA! (: do not ask me. (:
do you wanna know what hurts? when your bestfriend leaves for ns in 6 days! your bestie leaves for england in 2 days! and your boyfriend goes overseas right after his exams for 2 days! what's happening to my life?! this is when reality comes in a blow! slap me, please. (:
the things that have kept me going! (: because behind each picture, there's a very, very long story! the days of my life- awesome! (: &&&- trust me, yes! and i might even end up sharing one with you! (: lets have a date, shall we?! (:

but why complain?

2008-11-23T02:42:00.000-06:00

and i dont even remember how the past week went right ahead of me. it went by so quickly- too quickly. but it only means lesser days to countdown for the holidays! (: but scary with the year3 starting. major issues on hold, no?
do you know when you're on your way back home with no music on, no book to read, absolutely nothing to do- many things runs in your mind? or you dont have a choice but your mind goes wild! about the strangers around you, the people in your life, the past/ present/ future and even silly scenarios that you put together in your mind. (: its fun, fun, fun. but it may piss you off too. i really do love talking to myself. (:
lets do this last two sets of tests with awesomeness, yes! (: and i need fruits. i miss fruits. and i love them! HAHA! (: i shall ransack the fridge and find longans! (: because they make me a happy girl!

the things he do. (:

... the wind blows.

2008-11-16T00:00:00.002-06:00

i've got the weirdest boyfriend & bestfriend.
shawnnny msged me telling me he misses his boyfriend. and anand told me that he loves him a lot and he "muackx"ed him! tell me why arent they weird?! they might be bisexuals eh! they do get physical with each other. and i bet they will feel embarrassed and pissed off with me for this! too bad! (:
tuesday marks the end of the shawn's papers! (: like finally! it has been too long since we've last met! meet meet meet! a lot a lot a lot! before dec 11th comes too fast and takes my bestfriend away to make him a hot army man! HAHA! (: lets go play with your ET! (: and take pictures of your hair before you kiss it goodbye! (: ouch! &&&- "phenomena" is stuck in my head and it always reminds me of you singing whenever i listen to it! he's such a rockstar! (:
and anand! he's the only person who tells me what a horrible person i am! he makes me crumble and fall. he also knows when to pick me up and make me feel all so tingly! HAHA! (: such a sweetheart ah! (: i do need some of this dosage before i turn horrible! like mean! and no, im not one now! idiots! (: oh oh- anand sends me this oh-so-sweet msgs the first thing in the morning! oh my goodness lahh! (: just imagine you receive such when your faci is talking about analytical instruments! HAHA! makes my day complete even before it starts. (: i love him! (:

afiq afiq! (: i is hoping you're feeling much much better! and arguing with him can prolong till over days and the same subject can come up over and over again! but its bloody fun lahh! HAHA! it helps you train your argumentative skills! he drama a lot! like honestly! ask me. (: by the way- he's a bad teacher. (: he's the first person i spoke to from my year1.sem2 class and im glad my first impression didnt get in my way! HAHAHA! paranoid?! kidding! (:
sharon & i are in a great dilemma now. a lot of matters to be handled. im not even joking when i say that! 3 issues, one major plan, ceremony, articles! like life is not enough with school and its headaches! and seriously- how is shopping even fun? maybe it is when you've got the cash! HAHA! but argh! people brush against you and they push you! people dont have manners, rem? refer to rant below! HAHA! (: and the customer service ah! sucks my toes sia! some! they do not serve you properly if they see you as students or assume you dont have the cash! and they trail you around like you're going to shoplift! all the more i wont buy anything from there lahhh! and im boycotting this particular drink stall from my school. mean mean mean people! they deserve to get the same treatment. arghh!
i am definitely dragging mum out tomorrow! she cheated my feelings today and decided to keep quiet! sneaky? very much so! i love my mum! (: HAHA! random. but i really dont care. (:
do you know module selection is annoying?! so many options. so many routes! and there's attachment! we're like the pioneering batch! HAHA! or just the guinea pigs! (: from sas, only my course has been chosen for this trial! jealous?! HAHA! but this just adds even more decisions to be made. why cant life be so easy when you finished PSLE and you just have to go to a secondary school?! but yes, there are many schools to choose from even. choices spoil people! HAHA! (:

anand asked me something. "where's deborah? where's fiona?". and it hurts. i miss you two like crazy and im willing to skip school to meet both of you! im sorry for being such a horrible friend. it really does suck. you two were the ones who made my secondary school days like a walk in the park. (: i lovelove you! (:
151108- 18 months have gone by! and it still bloody hurts! i hate this. in every sense of the word. but yes, a better place it is. whichever. 18th month.

27 months together. (: roses and thorns. (: but we've picked up the great moments and moved away from the bad ones. i may not the best of a girlfriend. you've been the face to the -i-want-this-kind-of-boyfriend. (: and the best part of it all- you make me family. (: i love you so much, anand c. (: you still give me butterflies in my stomach! in a happyhappy way! (:

2008-11-12T00:47:00.000-06:00

im drained. tired. and i really just wish to rot my life away- at least for now.
year2 is coming to a near end really soon. and we'll be seniors very soon. then we'll graduate and its time to proceed on with our lives achieving what we want! (: it is a little frightening, no? all the responsibilities falls on you even before you can say pneumonoultramicroscopicsilicovolcanoconiosis. i didnt make up that word. google. (:
my eyes hurt. my head hurts. and my legs are giving in. i just wish to do nothing. like literally stone! and im being repetitive. yes, you just read a whole load of my rubbish.

its annoying to see secondary school kids to walk around like they bloody own the world. talk as though they want to get whacked! like what the hell sia. you cannot even get a proper job now! and you still give so much of an attitude.
oh, by the way- its only courteous if you say, 'thank you', 'excuse me', 'sorry' if the situation calls for it. so bloody rude sia! even the older people. is it so hard?! basic manners! damnit! and nobody gets to be mean to anybody that you like! even if you're having a bad day or you're having your mood-swings- burn, please! even the canteen vendors deserves respect! wahh... no one owes you a bloody living, you know!
do not stare! dont! so childish lahh! if you want to say something- just say it. its not even anywhere close to cool. disgusting.
it just says so much about you. (:

goodness! and all i want to do now is go to the airport. (: its like the in-thing now! HAHA!

in my basement.

2008-11-03T21:41:00.001-06:00

29th oct:
awesome birthday celebration for desmonddd! (: just that went super late! and the cab driver was bloody annoying! he was rude and i believe we shouldnt even pay! damnit! he pissed me off! he raised his voice at us lahh! but thank god for siti! the journey was made peaceful and funny! (: HAHA! met prabhu, desmond, khalis, hanis over at east coast lagoon. awesome food, even better company and conversations with happy moments! (: events took place! lizards! food! HAHAHA! then we walked, walked, walked, walked. took pictures here and there! crackers! (: then we made our way to mac's! (: khalis treated us coke! wow, right?! HAHAHA! (: but sadly, siti & i had to make a move fast! another wonderful bus journey back home with sitiii! (: &&&- i missed my last bus then i took the train! i do not fancy train rides. arghh!

30th oct:
meeting. and a crazy rush to get our posters re-sized and printed within that day when we had the presentation tomorrow! goodness lahh! we finished resizing and coming up with more information to fit 8 A3 pieces in 30minutes! we had to borrow notebooks. and we ran to get the printer-aunty to help us print. we gave the pitiful faces for them to help us print as they were already closing! and we succeeded! (: HAHA! then we ran again to return the borrowed notebooks. failed with the pitiful faces there! and we did something so that we didnt have to bring them back home! not telling because we might have to do the same trick again! HAHAHA! (: then long john's was so inviting us to eat their happyhappy combo1! (: afiq joined us then! after a happy meal we went ahead to explore the same old causeway point! and we played arcade! awww! (: the damn air-hockey! and im more than happy to let you know that i lost to both of my beloved friends! suckers! HAHAHA! (: that game is dangerous. blue-black. then we played this super fun again together! afiq, sharon and i- we're an amazing team together and we so rocked that game. we had a big audience! and then sharon had to leave to get some things fixed. afiq loves causeway point way too much! like seriously! HAHA! (: we fought. argued. and we happily went back home! (:

31st oct:
ppeee presentation!
seriously- i have an awesome girlfriend, yes! (: we calmed each other down and we watched each other present! awwww! (: HAHA! no, we're not lesbians! its really nice to have someone we're comfortable with to be there when you're presenting to three assessors who seem to be waiting to attack you with questions. one by one. and the assessors were so moved by our actions- being there for each other. because friendship. HAHA! (: after some crazy stunts done. lefttttt! (: jurong east! (: gross lunch with the afiq! arghhh! but he was nice enough not to make me eat that whole load of vegetables! those were big, thick and sure damn hard! i am talking about vegetables! (: made a whole load of bets! and yes, i have learnt my lesson of shutting up and letting it happen! cheyy?! (: HAHA! (: walkwalk around IMM and we got lost! yes, we did! blame him, seriously! then we decided to go woodlands because afiqqq wanted to get his tee! and then off to the libraryyy! (: songs time! (: and im not a bimbo. he listens to odd songs! i dont care! i will tell this to everyone here. afiq listens to odd songs! HAHAHA! (: airhockey! failed. kill me! whichever, seriously! (: and overall- i had a blast! (: because the company matters but the people are love! (: touched?! (: HAHA! (:

1st nov:
rpeee library! when i didnt realise i could get the resources of the net! call me dumb! HAHA! i made anand drive there somemore! (: but he is the boyfriend! (: then we made our way to his place to study! his mother damn cute sia! HAHA! i wanna hug her! (: i whined! anand ignored! and his youngest brother- he doesnt even look me straight in the eyes! HAHAHA! i scare him! i like! (: then we went to drop of aunty and iniyan at her friend's place! she talks to me! HAHAHA! i know- gotta make an impression! and i like her! (: like really! no, anand! im not saying this just cause i know you read my blog! HAHAHA! (: got back home- watched movies, ate and left! (: i've yet to meet his dad though. hahahaha! and his mother made a comment! &&&- i so agree with her ah! HAHAHAHA! (:

2nd nov:
got annoyed realising that you need to go back to school the next day! arghh! HAHA! (: happyhappy conversations with the afiq. & the sharon! (: and then the anandddd! (: definitely got lectured! but really! whichever! rebel! HAHA! (: i spent the day doing nothing as much as possible! checkers were so won! and the bet was laid out on the table! (: twirls! (: oh- anand's damn sexy! like really! (: he sounds the best when he's sleepy! HAHAHAHA! but yes, i love to hear him talk as well! (:

3rd nov:
school! shoot me! with lab session! shoot me one more time! interview session after school. happy walkkk! (: awkward moments straightened out! the drama! HAHAHA! (: but hey, everything's good now. at least as i see them to be! (: you realised how life is monotonous once school reopens?! HAHAHA! (:

dear lord, please provide all the strength and energy needed for those who are sitting for their A's starting from today. allow them to remember everything that they've studied and be able to apply them accordingly and accurately! guide them through this journey and bless them with everything! allow them to get what they ultimately want! (: thank you lord for all the wonderful things and do forgive us for our sins! (:
shawnnnnny! you can do this! it has been 2041278 years since we last met! updates! updates! (: fighter pilot! he is going to be a hot army man! (: woohooooo! and we shall meet when you're in your uniform and take pictures! (:
one of the many reasons why he is my bestfriend! (: HAHAHAHAHA! (:

4th: high school musical with sharon, eloise ~~& diniy~~.
5th: anand's turn to plan a date!
6th: sharonnn! (:

p.s.: yes, wordy! HAHA! (: and thus, i will not update till after 6th! (: so, maybe you can read each day's update separately! HAHAHA! &&&- im telling you this at the end of the entry! call me bright! (:

on a glory night.

2008-10-30T01:47:00.000-05:00

appy 20th and a day desmond lim **** ****! HAHAHA! (: yes, i wont reveal your chinese name because im nice! (: &&&- all the best and good luck in everything that you do, yes! you're an awesome photographer with a great eye for design! and you're so neutral in topics. unless of course, when it comes to you mocking people and giving very fanciful remarks! HAHA! (: you rock, dont you?! (: god bless you always, you philosophical fella! i hope you may achieve whatever that you strive for. being the mean-looking 'senior' you were when i was in year 1, you're really different. funny, odd and mean! hahahaha! (: thanks for being a splendid friend and a wonderful asset to all! (: and please start taking pictures with your full face showing! hahahaha! (:

2008-10-27T01:40:00.000-05:00

ben: anand, say something sweet about me...
anand: YOU'RE FAT & CHUBBY!
ben: HAHAHAHA! i am going to blog about this ahhh! HAHAHAHA!
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ben: there was an article about euthanasia in the papers. what are your thoughts ah?
anand: (in a British accent) im strongly against that idea, ben! nobody has the right to kill anyone with or without the permission. EXCEPT FOR THE PARENTS! THEY CAN KILL THEIR CHILDREN!
ben: HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!
anand: you're going to blog about this, right! BLOG EH!
ben: thick-skin sia! AHAHAAHHAHA!

my boyfriend seeks fame and glory through my blog. HAHA! i love you! (: i believe anand's damn act-cool. cause im way cooler than him! ask anyone. and i bet they will all lie and say he's the coolest. cause they are retards! (: but he makes me laugh like a fool. im still smiling. (: all the capitalised letters are because he raised his voice whilst saying that. no, im not exaggerating! (: he defines l o v e . (: anand's really damn hot ah! DAMNIT! HAHAHA! (:

happy happy deepavali to everyone! (: since its the festive of lights, let this day be bright and colourful with happy people and an awesome start to the days ahead of us. (: lets rock our lives away... (:

... last forever.

2008-10-26T04:00:00.000-05:00

friday: congratulations to rpeee's men's floorball team to be crowned as champions for pol-ite '08! (: the 3 matches that were watched out of the 5- they were amazing ah! they made the games look so stunning! woohoooo! (: the prize presentation was a pleasure to watch with a great atmosphere! the dinner made the day complete! (: with sharon, afiq, firdauz, guhen, haz, ahmad, shah. sharonjeet kaurrrrr! HAHAHA! (: dont we all love our conversations?! HAHA! (: the bus ride back was painful! HAHA! ask afiq. (: the liverpool match means another round of pain for either one of us. but im pretty sure its for him. (: cheyy! (:
saturday: my family rocks my socks! HAHA! my mother mocks me and my brothers tells to my face that im annoying! but my mother finds me the prettiest and my brothers always encourages me! why shouldnt i be a spoilt brat ah?! HAHA! (: i spent my day editing, writing and watching endless shows on tveee. (: OH- i realised how my blog constantly updates the happenings in my life! HAHA! creepy! i dont reflect, do i?! well, i believe there must be a momentum for that to happen. like a 'feeling'. HAHAHA! or maybe i just dont wish to say anything to any rafi, shaiming or kumar! HAHA! oh lord! im lame! (:

with a week's break from almost everything, why do i still get the feeling everything's still very nearby?! that 70's show (season 8, episode 7)- funny! HAHAHAHA! (: i bet if i can actually go out anytime and be back anytime, i'd be out now rotting my life away! HAHA! i love my family. (: seriously- thank God for these lovelove people for making me who i am. so, if you hate me- you're actually hating my family. or maybe im just trying to make you not hate me now! HAHA! LORD! i need sleep now, dont i? (:
oh, by the way- i already have the people whom you wish to have! (: it'll be like a dream come true to see all of them together at one place at one time! but heck, that always happen in my mind. okay, that is freaky.

nothing heard, nothing said.

2008-10-23T22:47:00.001-05:00

migraines are very much persistent nowadays.
tired. tired. tired.
solutions.
relationship.
friendships.
school.
internship.
interest groups.
family.
restless.
lab sessions = torture.
deprivation of sleep.
ppeee poster.
dates.
migraines.

bold ones are the things that are making me happy. beyond. (: 4 out of 15. that makes my life perfect. (:
by all means, add to the list. just happy ones? its funny how my life is so school-based. can we all rejoice that we've got a week of break to look forward to? please! (:
i wish to fly away right now. (:

oh, am i late?

2008-10-18T15:17:00.003-05:00

october 15th:
happy birthday to my beloved sexy, hot brother! (: HAHA! (: its funny how i pissed him off on his birthday itself! but he still loves me ah! i really really pray the best for him in everything that he embarks on with god's blessings forever! (: i wish him to succeed great and get a hot wife! HAHA! i love this brother a lot a lot (as much as all my other siblings too, yes!)! (: he's always looking out for me, he pretends to let me be independent but i know he always has my back. he never says no! (: i admire his never-give-up attitude, the way he portrays friendships, lame jokes, advice/ "word-of-caution". (: i bet no one knows how old he is when they look at him cause people had many ideas when they see us together! (: he's love. he was such a rebel when he was young! like seriously! im not even joking- the things my parents went through! HAHAHA! (: but its bloody cool that he actually learnt and moved on; made his life awesome! he's such a role-model eh! (: &&&- this day he had many wonderful surprises, wishes came true and gifts made their way to his heart. (: more to come! (:

17th: i love my dad a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot. (:
painttt: anand, subra, ashtak, ashraf, ben! HAHA! (:

october 16th:
this is like the first fella whom i know who turned 21 in front of me! HAHA! (: happy 21st subraaaa! (: he has the funniest nicks which i shall not reveal! and seriously- the picture above doesnt even make him look like 20/ 21 ehh! he says the funniest and most random-est thing! and he praise me a lot a lot ah! HAHAHA! and indirectly makes fun of me too! he's an amazing friend to embrace! (: and nope, he doesnt act like 21 either! (: he's like a little brother to that group ah! god bless him always! all the best and good luck in everything that you may think and want to do! have fun, fun, fun in ns very soon! and become the hot army man, yes! (: HAHA! (:
&&&- a super lovelove 26th month to my lovelove anand! (: and why do you look even more hot whenever i see you?! HAHAHAHA! (: but really ah! my boyfriend can foresee the future and tells me that "before we alight from this bus, you're going to piss me off ben!". HAHAHA! (: nevertheless, i love you! because you're godsent. (:

october 17th: nope, no birthday! so many birthdays this month eh! wahlan eh! HAHA! (: its like they jumped off the sky during this month all of a sudden! (: like angels! cheyy! touched?! HAHA! (: lesson was annoying! classmates are love! i think i might bury myself in the class if more of such were there! (: nothing will be revealed because its within a class. like class policies, class politics! HAHAHA! im being stupid. (: floorballllll match! rpeee versus tpeee. (: yes, rpeee won! (: its like normal ah! HAHA! (: dinner with the sharon, the afiq, the firdauz, the yusoff & the brother, the two other guys whom i know the name but dont know how to spell! HAHA! (: it was amazing ah! (: smiles, laughters, arguments, threats, intimidation, games! exchange of thoughts! awesome moments ah! (: adorable creatures! (: thennnn! (: shawl from ananddd! (: awww, right?! HAHA! (: i still stand my ground that he cannot do surprises and sweet gifts exchange. i so knew he bought something lahhh! HAHA! spoiler? "here, i dont know nice or not. but i buy for you already. i dont know lah. i touched- quite nice." what the! HAHAHAHA! (:
october 18th: clinic with the mother! yes, blood pressure is high. i bet its cause of me lahhh! even she agrees! (: i know, my mum loves me! (: &&&- i actually didnt complain a lot today to her! but i was awkwardly quiet! tired siaaa! like the family doctor cannot be any further! HAHA! (: and i am going to cut my nails and do my work. (: bless thy soul. oh oh- i am going to be a nicer daughter! (: 'nicer'. (: HAHAHA! (:

october 12th:
i bet she wishes to fly for her 18th! (: HAHA! happy happy advance birthday wishes to khad! (: she utters non-stop about everything and anything; she brings instant smile to people's face! definitely for me, yes! (: HEHE! (: &&&- the best part is- she's the very first person i talked to from rpeee! (: from that SAS camp! (: from the very first moment, i knew she was a whacky lovable person! (: she made the camp wonderful and we had our own special moments! (: awesome ah! im really glad our friendship grew till we're two years old and more to come, of course. god bless you always! (: i wish you all the best and good luck in everything that you do. she's such a babe eh, really! (: and love, im always here, always ah! (: lets skip school one day and go crazy like how we always do! HAHA! (: enjoy your day, yes! (:

tomorrow- competition will be missed because family comes first. (: i cannot wait ah! im already excited! (: HAHA! tomorrow's Sunday Family Day will be pretty, pretty. (:
&&&- i say 'october' like you wouldnt know! (: HAHA! (: and floorball weekend will be very soon with bestie, bestfriend and boyfriend! (: this is something to look forward to! (: two lab sessions next week: someone pinch me! (:

a tragedy.

2008-10-13T22:17:00.000-05:00

happy happy happy the 19th birthday to you, syazrul afiq! (: HAHA! (: god bless you always and ever! (: thank you for the wonderful moments from year1.sem2 till year1.sem1 and even now! (: and then till you get old! not me! HAHA! (: i still remember our first conversation ah! you were so anything! action sia! HAHA! (: but whichever it may be- got to know you better and you're actually nice ahh! cheycheyy! (: our msn, msgs, conversations, forfeits/ bets/ threats/ treats, jokes, laughters and happiness! memories & moments! precious, they will! (: coolness eh! (: but im really am glad to have found such an amazing friend like you! (: a couple of qualities which rocks my socks off cause of him will be that he's an idiot all the time and a kuku and a dumbdumb! HAHAHA! yes, fine! your birthday! oh oh- but he's always there! thank you for everything eh uncle! (: really, really appreciate it! (: and i bet he will be an awesome godfather to my kids! i bet cause i believe! cause i am the godmother to his! scary?! HAHA! tit for tat ah! HAHA! (: all the best & good luck in everything, syazzy wazzy! (: because you're an afiqqu! (:

2008-10-12T20:24:00.000-05:00

HAHA! (: an awesome birthday to you, prabhuuuu! (: all the best & good luck in everything that you do! (: god bless you always, yes! he was intimidating and scary at first! and he cheated us by flipping through the pages very fast during last year's SLA! HAHA! he thinks im on something because im always happy! he got super annoyed whenever i laughed at him when he conducted the meetings during my year1! (: but we got to know him and he is the best senior ever! seriously! he makes us laugh and make us look like weirdos! BUT- he rocks our world! im really glad to have known him better throughout the time! i wish him the best in everything that he do with awesome health! (: and an amazing relationship with the girlfriend ah! thanks for being the great senior and a better friend; a best brother! (: you're definitely going to be missed! im really glad you had the best 19th and im really sorry that i couldnt be there! another belated party ah! HAHA! (: &&&- seriously, too many moments! (: precious. &&&- i still stand on the thought that he has a straight face when he's funny, angry, speaking, stoning etc! HAHAHA! i will still continue taking pictures of him and the rest spontaneously! HAHAHA! that pisses him off! (:

2008-10-11T23:20:00.000-05:00

tuesday: i think its disgusting when you find someone a threat and you do horrible stuff to spite them. its pretty much depressing! (: anyways, a lot of deadlines to be met! and i think the deadline might actually be met! i cannot wait for the 20th! (: so exciting sia! (: anand drove! (: dropped off sharon and we made our way to marsiling where we met puva, subra and sasi! (: shopping time for those deepavali-celebrating boys! HAHA! bargaining is annoying and those aunties & uncles are so... then off to bugis where subra felt a lot of heart-pain! with those ... guys- i am always, always laughing eh! i dont even know how to term them! HAHA! (: as usual anand made a lot of mistakes on the roads! but it was funnyyy! (:

wednesday: clean clean anand's room! (: aunty was such a sweetheart! &&&- she made me eat vegetables! ohmylord! HAHA! but me being the nice girl that i am, ate without complaining and smiling! sweet, yes?! they are vegetarians! where oh where is all the meat! HAHA! but anand whacks them outside the house ah! i still believe his second brother is hot and his little one is annoying! HAHA! &&&- anand's room's a mess! like very bad! i ironed his clothes and wiped his cupboard! if only anand can clean up my house ah! HAHA! (: reminiscencing. anand has a lot of girlfriends! like friends who are girls! HAHA! what's up with him and being bestfriends to everyone?! HAHA! met sharon & jane for rpeee's first floorball pol-ite match at npeee! it was the awesomeness! (: HAHA! the feeling was nice and great, esp when rpeee won against nypeee! cheyy! (: dinner with the afiq, the sharon & the firdauz! (: yummy treat and funny conversations! (:

thursday: slack slack with sharonnn! (: its funny how we understand each other but people find us odd for that! and its damn cool that we always find reasons for ourselves to praise us! but we know our limits eh. i think! action ah! (: then i went over to toa payoh to pick up anand! HAHAHA! lame! made our way from bugis to little india with sasi, faiz, subra, ashtak, ashraf! (: awesome dinner where puva joined us there but sasi left before that! (: ate too much but cool thoughts were exchanged. anand and i left them to explore mustafa! HAHA! sorry shawnnny! but another one with you eh! (: then i made anand leave cause i was beyond exhausted! and we had loads of fun! (:

friday: horrible uttt! horrible lessonnn! class politics! HAHA! water guns! exchange of stupid lines! threats! HAHAHA! i think my class is love. but things need to change! ohwells! at least there are still lovelove people around me! afterwhich sharon & i made our way to the second floorball match! HAHA! we went pretty late but we were there at the right time! afiq was like so playing lahhh! and he scored! amazing eh! he rocks, rocks! (: rpeee won again, against speee! HAHA! (: dinner with afiq and sharonnn! (: happening rides back with sharon, afiq and lava! &&&- no shawney! i didnt finish your kueh lahhh! i will pass them to you asap, yes! you cancelled on us lahh! nowadays you action what! your ET, clubbing! cheyy! shawnnny is coolstuff sia! but im really sorry, yes! he sends hurtful funny msgs! HAHA! (: great talk with the afiqqu! i is hoping much, you is doing well, no?! (: woohooo!

saturday: visiting. ): i dont wish to elaborate! HAHAHAHA! its funny how issues related to my family is very much a secret! HAHAHA! but the close ones would know well! i miss myself! HAHA! lame? dont care! i foresee the week ahead to be very hectic with trainings and celebrations! (: i want to go greece! (: venice! and all the prices are going up! what the hell, right! how are we suppose to comprehend such hikes! so, i suggested myself to move on! HAHAHAHA! i am talking utter nonsense sia. ignore! (: &&&- im really really sorry to shamala, desmond & sharon! relatives! argh!

no photos sia! wahlan ehh! HAHA! i cannot wait for tomorrow with the family doing nothing! (: goodbye, sweethearts! i miss each & everyone of you very much! and online sites to watch shows very much rocks my socks off ah! (: lets all dance around that tree now! (:

... mess up.

2008-10-06T22:37:00.001-05:00

i dont even know why i am this bloody tired. i just want to do nothing and stone! (: dont tell me cause i dont get enough rest, dont eat properly etc. cause my body system is actually tuned to such! i realised i will be damn annoyed and pissed off with everything! but once i leave the house; i dont wish to rub my negative aura to the people around me! because that sucks and just plain selfish! HAHA! (: so, i make myself happy! and seeing the lovelove people happy makes me happy! with the awesome songs that i lipsync to like a loser! HAHA! (:
&&&- that afiq makes me feel stupid! im not even going to elaborate lahh! because he's an idiot! (: wahhlan eh! i can write a book on the number of ways to make me look retarded- by Afiq! burn him and his new nike bag ahh! HAHA! (: but but- that kitkat like awesome ah! thankyouverymuch! but that doesnt mean im going to let your life be easyy! cheyy! HAHA! (: i am a gangster! (: all the very best to your pol-ite ah grandpa! (: woohoooo! no worries, be happy- yes?! (:
shawnnnny! (: just met him for dinner! talked random topics and just had fun, fun, fun! i still want to go mustafa lehh! he sends damn sweet msgs lahh! but he acts cool! because it ruins his image! EH! HAHA! (: he laughed at my cool phone ahh! and now the bestfriend has a line! HAHA! dont care- tell the whole world! HAHAHA! (: shawnnny is a social drinker. and a social smoker! (:
i would like to tell everyone that i do not like lab sessions! i need to bring covered shoes! and lab coat! and i dont like to wear covered shoes to school itself because it gives me bloody blisters! it still gives me blisters when i only wear them for half a day! it makes me whine the whole day! and the lab is not a very conducive environment to study in! and makes the facis mean! HAHA! i blame everything else! i prefer classrooms! and damn my course lahhh! see- blogging about it makes me wanna whine too!
[edited]/ HAHA! (:
i bloody miss anand ah! he's having his holidays and i still dont get to see him often! ): he has his work! he does so many jobs! and the kid that he is teaching tuition to is going to have psleeee soon! so he needs to give more time to him! wahh! that kid gets to see anand more than i do! HAHA! and i need him more lahhh! damnit! something allows crops up for him! i met him on saturday! and thats it eh! HAHAHA! i know its just last weekend! but last week- i got to see him so little lahh! i dont know! whichever! i miss him and that's that! damnit! HAHA! (: and his phone has issues, mine has issues! technology bloody sucks my freaking toes lahhh!
migraine! arghhh! HAHAHA! im t i r e d .

did you regret?

2008-10-03T19:58:00.000-05:00

october 1st is something that is very special to me because two of my loveliest babes' birthdays falls then! (:yes, deborahhh's 20th! (: she's still a young child at heart which explains her birthday falling on the children's day! she's a sweetheart, seriously! i wish her all the very best and the best of luck for everything that she may embark on! because she deserves all of! god bless her always. thanks for being a sweetheart! she has been there for me at my worst times and my best! and i really mean it! and she knows the right things to say and do to cheer me up. do you remember the bus-stop thingy?! oh my goodness ahh! i still cannot believe we actually did that. it just goes to show that this friendship is very precious and will not be lost just because we're not in much physical contact! i really hope you had loads of fun, joy and laughter with the best people around youu! im always here for you, yes! i love youuu! (:
i've got no idea why i cannot find your picture alone! HAHA! nicolette! (: our late night conversations, funny gossips and you being you! happy happy birthday to you, love! (: god bless you always! i really hope that you get whatever that you may even wish for cause i believe that you've worked super hard for it. you were one express stream prefect whom i very much like till now! HAHA! rebellious eh! HAHA! and your laughter is always so unique. i wish you to be smiling always! i hope you had a blast of a time on your very special day! (:

i bloody miss my nephew and nieces! ): hassan mohammed hiqumath haroon, thahasina beevi & iffah! i love them so much! like so much! i wish to be the bigger sister that they look up to me for! even when my brothers' get married and have kids- they will never beat those three loves! im not kidding! i love them, wholeheartedly! can one of you bring them back to me? (:
the little things raya brings about. (: my sister is super pretty, my brothers are hot and handsome! thank the Lord for my awesome parents! HAHA! (: nope, im not being bias. (:
eid mubarak to everyone all the time! (:

system overload

2008-09-30T16:00:00.003-05:00

and this is how we take silly pictures together- which shows one of the many reasons why we click together! (: bestfriend + boyfriend. (:
i made my awesome way to meet the shawneyy at his place where we crapped for a very short while. cause the anand decided to bring his car for a ride and the shawneyy got more excited for that ah! so, we made our way to yewtee first! (: where he bought newpaper and totally ignored me. like seriously. and he found pleasure in that! HAHA! (: finally, anand made it and we decided to go beach road to break fast with tulang & muttonchopchopchop! HAHA! we spent about more than an hour figuring out how to get there and we made a lot of U-turns, i almost flew out of the car (kidding!), a lot of street map-checking! and i break my fast with chewing gum sia! HAHA! then we decided to head to ikea to enjoy their cheapcheap nicenice hotdogs before we all faint and collapse in the car! & then we realised beach road is closed for renovation. decided to go little india for some lovelove indian food! HAHA! met qaleefathullah first (&&&- this guy pretty much hates me! HAHA! basket, no?!) and met puva at little india itself. ate well. (: took pictures, of course. BUT we couldnt walkwalk around mustafa. ): sorry ahh shawnnny! thursday, all righteyy?! (: dropped the Q and P at commonwealth and clemeti respectively! and went to shell at choa chu kang to get petrol. bloody drama! i believe she should be burnt at the kiosk itself! annoying eh! anand left the car at his carpark and we took a cab back to semb! as anand was afraid he might fall asleep behind the wheels! HAHA! and also because it was already 12am!
we all know how much of a situation i'd've gotten myself into when i got home. HAHA! (: oh- anand really knows many ways to shut me up! HAHA! basket ahh! you know, it feels awesome! for many issues! HAHA! secret. ask me! (:
today- eve of hari raya! (: woohoooo! a lot of preparation, last minute shopping, chores! &&&- yes, i have to go now before the whole neighbourhood hears my mum calling out for me. HAHA! (:

may j.b.jeyaretnam rest in peace. (: "a man who stood by his principles".

a very blessed day tomorrow! (: god bless us all with prosperity of good health, enough wealth and with abundance of happiness! enjoy your visitings/ visits, food, company, pictures. be thankful, grateful and basically, be happy! tomorrow is a beginning to a wonderful chapter. (: i love you, you, you, you, you, you, you, you etc & even you. (:

and everything in it.

2008-09-27T14:09:00.000-05:00

26th sept: happy happy 19th birthday, my bestfriend! (: i wish the best for you at all times! &&&- im just super duper glad of finding you to be part of my life! you're like smart and athletic! (: i wish for you to be exceling in every other field that you may choose! (: god bless you always ah, fighter pilot! (: lead a healthy lifestyle, can?! HAHA! (: and grow fat eh! so that i wont look obese beside you! he may not have the right words to say at the right times but he surely knows to be there for you whenever wherever! seriously! its like he never sleeps! HAHA! (: seriously- shawney's a blessing! (: thank you for the wonderful friendship. bestfriend is loveee! (: BFF, please! HAHA! (:
27th sept: a very happy birthday to sharonnn! (: she's like an awesome friend eh! (: HAHA! (: the girl who didnt like me at first and thought i'd be the last person to be close with her! and she's the girl whom i didnt really take notice of! cheyy! &&&- check us out now! (: she's a great company to be with. god bless you always! thanks for all the great times, memories, moments and for the future happenings in advance! all the very best in your future! HAHA! (: sharonjeet kaur is the babe eh! she's random, interesting, pretty, smart- what's there not to like about her?! woohooo! (: loveeee!

&&&- we gave sharon the jeet a surprise party yesterday @ fish & co, dhoby ghaut! (: HAHA! after torturing her by walking many places under the pretext of many lies. food, cake, songs, westside story, pictures and loads & loads & loads of excitement! (: prabhu, desmond, wahedah, hanis, khalis, siti made it! so sweet ahh! oh oh- we've got videos too! HAHA! (: shall start on renaming them very soon, yes?! (: but im just glad sharon got to enjoy herself to the maximum; and today shall be with her familyy! (:

to be here at all.

2008-09-24T22:33:00.000-05:00

dear lost-in-myself,

my ever-dearest deborah decided to post up the awesome pictures of our kc times in her facebook! (: &&&- i decided to cleverly "steal" some of them. because my stupid notebook decided to crash on me in 2006 where all my pictures from primary/ secondary pictures were gone down the freaking drain. those photos really did bring me back to those times and to the moments when we took those pictures. chinese new year, class decorating competition (where 5/1 was so slack & 5/2 was so enthu!), birthday celebrations, before-we-go-out, mass! (: super love-love-love! (:
i miss the "prefects, wear white." messages and the switch-off-the-lights "class, go to the hall now." routines! and the "cut your nails, take off your extra ear-sticks, sew your belt tighter, pinafore to be made longer." and taking-of-names-down-in-the-black-book. carrying the pouch everywhere with the nail clippers, sewing kit, rubber-bands etc. i miss the prefectorial board. its called the student council now- "prefects" are way cooler! HAHA! (: &&&- i also miss the comparison made between the two sec 5 classes with regards to studies, enthusiasm, students, following-rules-girls, homework-copying! HAHA! (: yes, yes- everybody definitely miss their secondary school times! girls' school rocks ahh! HAHA! (:
&&&- graduation came along! i remember deb calling me and asking me where was i at 3pm. and i was taking my own sweet time at home thinking that the luncheon was at 7pm! that was at 2.30pm! traveling from semb to meritus mandarin hotel isnt very fast, you know! HAHA! and i missed the whole going-up-on-stage-to-collect-the-graduation-cert thingy! HAHA! but the company was way better and the food was glorious! girls went hungry! (: crazy photo-taking session! and we strut down marina square with our dresses! (: oh oh- i remember going shopping with thegang to search for our dresses as well! (: daniel yam! (: pretty, hot, sexy, beautiful girls inside out! (: we've all grown so much for the better. some of us might have drifted apart but- the sweetness will always be within us. (:
just to show how much the two awesome babes in my life have grown! (: i know! (: HAHA! (: i think it has been forever since we've met! i have a strong feeling we'll be meeting up soon! HAHA! (: yes, intuition! (: cheyy! (: i love you, spastics! (:

OH- remember the time when afiq cornered me in checkers?! and how he was proud of it & everything! HAHA! he mocked me so much too, yes?! karma is love lahhh! HAHA! (:
click! click! click! HAHAHA! sweet taste of victory. there was another third time, but that fella had utttt to attend to! and i almost won him in that too! wasted ah! HAHA! and i shall await for my winnings! HAHA! so, i guess i dont have to wait another 100years ah! now- i action! HAHA! (: the little awesome things that makes each problem to be so much more fun! really- do you think polymer & composite science is that cool?! HAHA! (: thanks afiqqu! HAHA! exciting siaaaa! (:
i've got my ever-bestfriend! (: HAHA! no, i dont stalk- i follow-up! and nope, when he meant "sadly", he is actually damn happy! HAHA! (: and my niece still remembers him sia! wahh! she wont even talk to me properly but can ask me how is he doing! HAHA! but iffah was afraid to play with him then ahh! and this made shawnnnny very much happyyy! (: such crazy people in my life! (:

migraines are killing me. damnit! i hate medications and i hate going for checkups. waste of time and money! lorddd! migraines have made me cry to sleep for the past two dayss! annoying! i am going to fast tomorrow ah! dont care! HAHA! (: and went to meet anand just now! he drove! oh my goodness, right! HAHA! (: he is bloody good lahhh. he is good on his wheels! (: he picked me up, drove me all around and i made him crazy whilst reading the map! my guides' skills are losing its effect! HAHA! (: his mum is so adorable lahh! so cute! (: but seriously, my boyfriend drives damn well lahh! i think its cause of me! HAHA! (:
change of template: just for majorieee! (:
&&&- i foresee a jb shopping trip very soon- like now! (: e x c i t i n g !

love, ben. (:

2008-09-19T02:50:00.000-05:00

25th month:
because i am the loving girlfriend that i am, i decided to go over to hougang to meet anand where he taught tuition. (: HAHA! but yes, and he decided to be an awesome boyfriend by not getting too annoyed with my annoyance over my non-stop bickering over my blisters and he made me get down at the wrong bus-stop. i told him ahh! dont wanna listen- stubborn! HAHA! (: had dinner at kopitiam there- then made our way to mustafa- because going to mustafa is the in-thing now! BUT! he had a driving lesson at 9.55pm and we were at farrer park at 9pm! i made him tap back in to go for his lesson. but we still didnt make it on time! thus, we bounced back from marina bay and we got down at woodlands! (: because my blisters were killing me and i cannot walk from semb mrt to my place! i will just sleep at some pathway! HAHA! (: ramly burgers for the awesome family, that i have! (:
tp-eee & results' day:
wednesday is such an off-day for me! HAHA! made my way to anand's place for him to check his results! he bloody passed and doesnt have to retake any of his modules! i told you, he's smart! pressurizing to be with him sia! healthy competition! and we're competing to check on our GPA when we graduate! sick couples ah! HAHA! (: then took cab down to BBDC for his tpeee! waited there and watched people registering/ going for lessons/ taking pictures for license and stoned while he went for his warm-up and test itself! waited another 30mins for his results! and he bloody passed also lahhh! okay, the 'bloody' is in a damn-happy-damnit-i-am-speechless kinda context! (: 10 demerit points only sia! cheycheyy! waited for an hour or so for his temporary license card to move on! went to seoul garden to treat this retard for all his success on this day! he cooked! once again, it just goes to prove- i suck in cooking! and anand's going to be a house-husband! i survive better in the outside world! cheyy! (:
19th birthday:
no, sadly- i did not skip school. ): had meeting thereafter too! pathetic girlfriend?! HAHA! but without the usual naggings and whinings i made my way to yewtee to wait for him! he was having fun with his family driving around the neighbourhood! made our way to west coast for no rhyme or reason according to my beloved boyfriend! (: i annoyed him throughout our journey! i realise i irritate him much! HAHA! (: and he was so getting pissed off lahh! he wanted to play pool, go little india and watch movie! and i disagreed with all and forced him to go west coast! of all places, yes?!
surprise waited for him right at the playground there! (: qaleefathullah, yousuff, sara, puva, subra, sasi, shan, faiz, ashraf, alfie, pavitra, chandini, daya, vishal, shafiq, ganesh, kanesh, naven, guru. (: i swear these people can make anand go crazy lahh! damnit- he almost cried! and these people are such great friends, really! cake, pizzas, drinks, friends and loads of love in the air! (: anand's face was like classic lah! (: and they sang the birthday song for him while this blurblock just stood there thinking its not for him. all the while since yest, he was thinking his friends are having other plans! HAHA! i love him for the dumbness he possess! (: i love you! (: ate, played games, photos, jokes, laughters, smiles and the bestest birthday for anand ever! (: and he thought 17th sept would be the day he would never forget! (: even on our way back home- he kept going on and on about how happy he was! (: i met shawnnny during my second break to get anand's gift and damnit! shawney's freaking sweet lahhh! he can be a retard most of the times but when he's sweet, he is beyond! (: i almost teared looking at his gift and he said "gay". idiot! (: this made anand go even more excited and got damn happy! ecstatic! i know when anand's truly touched- this time- it was beyond every fibre of his body! (:
highlight: anand's happy and im damn happy about it! (: and he's still speechless, i bet! (:

dear anand,
happy happy 19th and a day years old! (: i wish you all the best and good luck in everything that you do! god bless you always! (: you make the best boyfriend, brother, son, friend to anyone, anytime and anywhere! (: because you are the true person who will tell anybody what you feel and even if it hurts! but you are always there for them to help out whenever, wherever! (: thank you so much for everything! and im damn happy that you're the one i get to spend my time with! (: because you make every second of my life the best moments ever! you out-do yourself, love! (: i thank the Lord and pray for your well-being each day! (: study hard and play hard too! i believe my boyfriend is the hottest, handsome-st, sweetest, nicest love ever! i just love him. simple! (: happy birthday, sweetheart! (: i will hold your hand throughout any path. i just need you! (:
love, benazir.

2008-09-14T21:32:00.003-05:00

oh my goodness! and i've been updating so often now! HAHAHA! (: damnit lahhh!
happy happy happy birthday to my awesome brother! (: seriously- once he enters the house, it gets bloody super noisy! (: in a good way, of course! hahaha! (: he brings spastic-ness and randomness along with him! (: he's a blessing seriously! i really pray for him to be blessed with whatever that he may wish for- cause he deserve it. he's like a glue between some of us! haahha! (: such a hunk eh! woohoooo! (: god bless him always! and really- i dont kid when i tell you guys how much i annoy him! and yet, he still is there always! (: if i ever do something wrong, he's ever-ready to take the blame for me! no, i dont love him just for that! i love him for the wonderful person that he is for! (:

16th on the 15th: dad, love.
25th on the 16th: with anand, sweet.
3rd on the 17th: tpeee- anand! (:
19th on the 18th: anand's birthday! (:
~~1st on the 19th: cousins' sexayy! (:~~
off, i leave. (: because Sunday is Family Day! (:

take these edges.

2008-09-12T21:56:00.001-05:00

[/edited] due to sensitivity! (: check the other end, if you're able to. (:
with that done and over with it! (: my class is full of dramas ah! (: it is almost comical yet saddening! but at least we get to amuse ourselves and know that most of us are thinking in the same frequency! they are loves, somehow! (: and semester two is super indepth ehh! i can dig a hole and live in soltitude! like oh my gosh ehh! hahaha! (: i believe books are the right ways to go. and notetaking is very much missed along with all the highlighting! hahahha! (: moments! (:
i is feeling tired most of the time! maybe cause my family thought it'd be cool to stay up till around 3am to fast and then sleep. and we spend our time talking nonsense and getting abused! hahahaha! (: family is always there, dont you think so?! (: but honestly- if im sleeping and you wake me up- just tapping/ calling/ shaking me once or twice willl do. dont do it so many times! that will annoy me very much! seriously! without even giving a minute siaa! wahhh! my brother finds it funny to see get up and walk around the house like a lunatic! not funny! (:
when shawn and anand meet ah- with me around- its like im not even there! and when i annoyingly interupt, they ignore or just shut me up! what the hell, no?! hahahaha! (: and nope, im not going to say anything good about them. HAHAHAHA! (: im the funny one ahh! no?! (:

and round in circles.

2008-09-10T13:19:00.000-05:00

Tagged by:
majorieeeeeee! (:

A) People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.

B) Tag 8 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

Tagging: anyone, anywhere, anytime. (:

1. What are your nicknames?
banana, ben, benny, spastic, benji, bena, (my 2nd name- bleahh!), benjamin (!). HAHA! (:

2. What do you do before bedtime?
prayy! (: and perform my ritual- i will fall back on my bed. and get up quickly and fall back again! (: its like a must! (: retarded?

3. What shampoo brand do you use?
pantene! (: its the awesome-ness! (:

4. What is your favorite scent?
myself! HAHAHAHA! lame! scent- fresh?

5. What video games are you playing at the moment?
i dont play video games! i dont play computer games! i play card games! (: cheyy!

6. What do you eat the most?
everything that is not healthy. and excluding pork, of course! (:

7. Do you trust easily?
very much. and then i get repeated slaps on my face by most of them!

8. What's the oldest piece of clothing in your wardrobe?
my primary school uniform! hahahaha! (: so cool ahhh! oh my god! (:

9. Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
these days? like yesterday eh! depressing! hahahaha! (:

10. Do you have a good body-image?
i'd like to think i have an awesome body! k i d d i n g . who is ever happy?! hahaha! (:

11. Is being tagged fun?
yeapp! not all the times though! (: HAHAHA! (:

12. What websites do you visit daily?
myrp, livejournal, blogs, illegal movie sites, illegal music sites, hotmail & MSN news! HAHAHA! (: really! (:

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
family, kc-sweethearts, boyfriend, bestfriend, bestie, RP-loves, God & you. (:

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
random, awesome, funny (!), sweet! (:

15. What’s the last song that got stuck in your head?
truly madly deeply by savage garden! hahahahaha! a wonderful terrible love song. (:

16. What’s your favorite item of clothing?
jeans! (:

17. What's your all time favourite drink?
cokeeeeeeeee! (: weeeee! (:

18. If you had $1,000 in cash, what would you do with it?
spend spend spend. save very little. then spend spend spend! (: retail therapy! (: impulsive shopping! (:

19. What items could you not go without during the day?
ipod. wallet. handphone. stationery. notebooks. a lot of mini pouches. what the heck is wrong with me, no? im not even kidding ahh!

20. What do you want to buy right now?
a mouse! (: as in the optical mouse! or or- how about the pretty notebooks and pretty colour pens?! (: a kitten will do wonders! (:

21. What personality trait do you wish you possess?
decisiveness. (: i really suck in this! bless thy soul! (:

&&&- that was fun! (:
ppeee done ahh! now now- poster! allahh! what's wrong with rpeee?! i am beyond tired!
10 days over! 20 more to go! (: and anand's bloody sweet lahh! he's fasting with me too! (: sweet, no?! but i feel badd! he insists! i told him to fast with me when we meet! but noooo! HAHAHA! (: such a blessing, he is! (: &&&- sharon too! she doesnt eat when im with her ahh unless she really cannot take it! awwww! (: i feel like im torturing these wonderful people! thanks a lot, really! (: this is why fasting month is love! (: lets go geylang serai shopping soon! (: weeee! (:
i've got no life! stupid? im bloody annoyed now! and i dont even now why! i bet...
class is great! it has been sometime since i had a proper class! (: but i foresee a good future! (:
and my hair is odd! really! like awkward. i still feel stupid! burn ahhh!
i sense CorpseBride calling out my name! (:

that already swallowed us.

2008-09-06T22:25:00.000-05:00

i promise you this will not be a freaking long post. (: HAHA! (:

the best part of the ending of last week was to meet shawnnnnny! (: it was awesome ah! MINE AHH! (: HAHAHA! (: watched his match against rpeee with sharonnn! (: the club wonn! (: HAHAHA! (: like of course- i'll support the shawney, yes! (: the match got fun only at the ending. 6-1 with shawney's amazing goal! (: cheycheyy! such a pro ahh! the company for the match was love! had fun talking crap and embarrassing ourselves as usual! the secret is still a secret! went for dinner with shawney after a very long time! (: met up with amanda and two other friends of their's! (: banquet! they were washing up lahh. ohwells! had loads of fun! (: spastic toes! (: moments were made! yayy! (: good bus journey back home! (:
met up with anand on friday for a very short period. that poor boy was starving cause of me as i was fasting! so i made him eat whilst i was sitting right beside him! HAHAHA! i annoyed him and he got pissed off and starting loving me more! HAHAHAHA! thick-skinned, no?! just like anand chandrasekaran. (: his dad is funny, please! (: then he went off to a stayover with his friends at ecp.

and today! (:

something in the wine.

2008-09-03T22:57:00.000-05:00

monday: i dont exactly remember what i did! HAHAHA! i most probably stoned my day away. i think i started on my ppeee then! yes- i've got 6 more days with reminders being sent occassionally- i dont think i can ever forget that! im going to do the rest now! very soon! (: like later! (:
tuesday: watched wall.e with anand and his brother! HAHAHAHA! i find this rather comical! this youngest brother of his bit me on my head, i think, the very first time i met him when we were in a big group of friends! basket, yes! HAHAHA! since then- i had this tiny little anger towards him! and no, he's not thatttt tall. he was standing on a chair and i was trying to be nice. thats what i get. but yesterday- was all right! (: he smiled his life away. and he really listens to anand ahh. he whacks me, please! i like him but i dont like him as much as i like his second brother! HAHAHAHAHA! (: but i love anand! (: awesome, yes! (: OH- i cut my fringeeeee. and i look retardedly stupid. i've never cut my fringe alone before. i feel odd. and i look lameeee! HAHA! so, do not laugh at me or ignore me cuase of my hair! HAHAHA! (: had kfc with bro to break fast! bro is the oddest most weirdest fella ahh! and he's always telling me on how he was the very first person i saw when i woke up- when i was born. (: maybe that is why we share this coolest bro-sis relationship! i love him eh! (:
wednesday: met anand and watched friends at speee! that media viewing room is awesome ahh! why cant rpeee have one?! the one we have now is just plain weird! and then met up with his friends where he left for job interviews with his friends and i got back home! a short day it was but a wonderful one! with anand, please! (:

i miss my bestfriend like god-knows-what! bestfriend-day tomorrow, yes?! (: it has been 864951 years since we last met eh! meet you at rpeee ahh! then show you off to the world! (: hehehehe!
honestly- my boyfriend is like the best ah! im such a pest! HAHAHA! he loves me nonetheless. although, he asked me for the 8357689th time whether i wanted to eat when i was fasting- he knows me inside out upside down! HAHA! (: he can definitely make my day! love, i love you! (:
fasting month has been going good! school's starting like tomorrow! i've got a four-day week! woohoooo! (: and ashtak said- 'rpeee's a school or office- can take off-days all!' HAHAHA! (: but damn the daily-grading thingyy! anyways! (: with anand's six-weeks of holidays and my sixteen-weeks of school! i prefer first day of school to be started on mondays! its like a complete cycle! and rpeee is so weird with the whole Problem 1/ Day 1 whichever crapola! let the rpeee students decipher! (:

and i also realised i blog a lot! as in like- everytime i blog- its bloody long! somebody tie my hands, please! im somewhat nervous for school tomorrow. allah! (:

i watch the stars glow.

2008-08-31T21:29:00.000-05:00

tuesday: training! (which was super slack cause our dearest coach had to leave early and the captain is love! HAHA!) (: and then off i went to the sharon's place with her to freshen up and supposedly to do ppeee. but but- of course, we did not do that! (: we watched movies! An American Haunting and White Noise! HAHA! we scared ourselves. sharon's mum's cooking is awesome ahh! (: with an awesome weather- we cuddled up and relaxed! HAHA! sounds wrong, no?! (: checked our results and checked people out as well! (: and seriously- the world is super small. maybe just singapore or maybe just rpeee. (: either way- we know a lot of people who know a lot of other people who know a lot of our people! very much intertwined! (: then off we went to meet the desmond! (: had to go back to school to take some photos for an article! (: issues happened. and yes, afiqq! either way- you're the man ahh! (: HAHA! (: photographs up real soon! (:

wednesday & thursday: bbq with the beloved people- wahedah, desmond, siti, hanis, hanis, sharon, khalis, amanda, shamini, ammar, ishardi, aaron, prabhu, shamala, luke. (: some people left early but it was super nice of them to still turn up. (: thanks a lot, loves! (: bbq-ing, performances, photos, stories, issues, thoughts, games occurred! (: there's some stuff which will be kept within ourselves. i did not get my cheese hotdogs. im pretty much upset! and i got pushed into the water ahhh! thanks ah prabhuu! wahhh! and you mocked me! arghhh! but but- the four girls managed to get him into the water. esp shamini! HAHA! (: some precious moments there, no?! but but- his phone is spoilt now with memories erased. sorry! i bloody get cold bloody fast and by getting wet at 4+ in the morning does not help with that chilly weather! rested for awhile- "girl" moments! HAHAHA! (: in the end- only hanis, khalis, prabhu, sharon and myself went for breakfast! cause we were bloody starving! awesome train rides! (: they make rpeee a much better place! (: HAHAHA!
but my thursday did not end there! off to meet anand! (: yayness! (: watched friends at speee. ate well and then went to heights for him to play soccer! (: his friends take me for a clown ah! basket! HAHA! (: but im glad they are his friends and now mine! (: they truly care! (: such lovely indians! (: HAHA! (: no sarcasm/ pun intended. (: trust me. (:
friday: soccer with anand and his friends! (: not bad ahh- my boyfriend organizes well! (: at the cage! (: there were some confusion but everything cleared up and everybody had total fun! with people mocking each other, friendly competition and nice sportsmanship! it was some good time for me! (: kfc for lunch! and anand's childhood friends are nonsense lahhh! HAHAHA! i think its bloody funny whenever they ask anand when are we breaking up! YES! HAHAHAHAHAHA! (: but i know they mean good for us- more for me! HAHAHAHA! (: i hurt myself laughing! (:
then baybeats! (: watched three local bands perform. leeson was awesome! (: peepshow wasnt too bad. another epic story can definitely do way better! (: from a very big group- only steve, desmond and myself were there! but nevertheless- we had a great time! (: HAHA! and steve is freaking funny lahh! desmond can really mock people ahh! they made the experience a wonderful one! dinner had to be missed with them to meet anand to pass him his house keys! i took it back home accidentally! oh oh- desmond treated us sugar-cane juice! (: sweet, right! HAHAHA! he's such a senior. HAHAHA! (:
saturday: baybeats again! but with a bigger group now. sharon, desmond, steve, g- then prabhu, khalis and hanis joined us later! khalis' performance supposedly rocked the mosque ahh! HAHA! so sorry- couldnt come byy! caught silhouette, you and whose army?, cardinal avenue, 4 imaginary boys! (: you and whose army? was the best for then! missed electrico cause food was more important! we were dying! seriously! long john's was visited! (: all of us had a spectacular time! (: i was suppose to be back home early then but nope- got held back! and yes- family was very much the welcoming! HAHA! oh oh- we won a prize! (: awkward bottles, towels and an esplanade diary was received! with my answer and sharon's guts! (: cool, right! took pictures where everyone hated me and wanted to break the camera! and nope, anand wouldnt be very happy about it! HAHA! (: laughters were exchanged and insults too! (: but sometimes, some people just deserve it at some point in time! (: and also- if you guys are close! (: AHAHA! (:
p.s.: i deleted my phonebook accidentally ahh! the feeling just sucks! everything gone! ): and so- im so sorry if you contact me and i ask you who are you! do not hate me! HAHA! i've not forgotten you but maybe just got mixed up with your numbers! please spare me! (:
sunday: no baybeats! Sunday is Family Day! ppeee will be done! (: yes! i will! and fasting month is starting in 3 hours or so! scaryy! a lot of behavioural attitude needs to be controlled! yes! HAHA! but my sunday didnt just end there! you know this fella named afiq! this afiq ahh! he finds it very funny to play pranks on me! nope! he msged me from another number and i got him correctly lahh! but no- deny. i said again- but nope. and i felt very much mean, evil, upset for not being able to get who's this person correctly. to the point of me getting scared to call cause i didnt wanna get myself into more trouble! the person called! and guess who was it?! guess! burn lahh! just when fasting month is coming up! first- he did another thing long ago! and now- this! instead of me saying so much- i shall do it! (: awesome, right! and yes- it is funny! but still! HAHAHAHA! nobody plays pranks on me! idiot!HAHAHAHA! idiot! (: a bit funny- im the funnier one! (: watch out ahhhh grandpa! (: basket! HAHAHA! (: but nope- im all right. dont go "im sure...." with me ahh! HAHAHA! (:
family-drama!

this week has been one busy, busy, busy week! and i know most of my classmates from my previous class. awesome, no?! HAHA! i foresee my future to be very much revolving around studies! cut cut cut cut cut hair! (:
happy teachers' day! (: my primary school teachers are not there any more! my sec school ones needs to be visited! they mould the future of the nation well, yes! HAHAHA! (:

got it twisted.

2008-08-25T23:11:00.000-05:00

this week has started off awesome-ly. (:
with a great weekend spent at home! (: seriously- mum and i can enter any mother-daughter competitions! HAHAHA! (: and whenever i say this to her- she finds it amusing! i really know my ways to piss her off and i know what she does when she is supposedly stoning! liar! hahahahaha! (: i love her very, very much! (: and she's an awesome model! (: HAHAHA! (:
met anand to study at speee! (: it was actually fruitful. (: lovelove! the food at the foodcourt 2 was okayyy! and i got nagged at for not telling him earlier and then whining about being hungry! HAHA! (: speee lib is cold like the north pole! even santa cannot handle it! freeze and die! (: sang songs, challenged each other in games, checked out people and practically had fun with each other's company! (: his friends joined us later. funny, funny people! (: and i am always smiling! HAHAHA! (: because i am happy! they are all so awkwardly awesomeee! (: my loves- i did do my ppeee- i started on my introduction! bless my soul! (: HAHA! you rpians can do it tooooo! (:
&&&- one more paper for you, love! (: you can do this! study like there's no tomorrow! after this semester- one more to go for another year to graduation! (: we'll be poly graduates then! (: you so rock, rock, rock! anand does not like people, or just me, to be 'loud' in mrt, buses- just public transport. he mood swings ahh! and i find that damn funny! HAHAHA! i love you, please! (: yes- you are so going to rock the soccer on the 29th ahh! (: you go, my giggs! (:off to meet shawnnnny! (: met him along marsiling with godfreyyy! and god- english! HAHA! then shawney (i find this cool!) and i got off at semb to go to his place to eat! cause- rem? i was hungry! HAHA! and he makes a better cook than me ah! he's OCD! HAHAHA! (: he made me burn the eggs! he is a freaking picky-eater ahh! my lord! watched tveee- and TALKED! (: people to be met, no?! thursday?! sis came back home then! she's super sweet lahhh! i find her damn pretty! and shawney just annoys her like crap. could just throw hot water at him! racist comments exchanged. total cool pictures taken (check out the above pic- 1-2-3-4-5. he thought it was cute! HAHA!)! (: oh oh- he uses his floorball stick to 'clean the corners'. HAHAHAHA! (: basket! "my face looks like penis ah!" HAHAHAHAHAHA! (: sent off to my place.bestfriend- all the best for your prelims! do not oversleep anymore ahh! just a few more months and off, my pilottttie! (: take care of your wrist. and aunty's cooking rocks my world ahh! tell her thanks, please! and my brother likes you! HAHAHAHA! (: spongebob squarepants is his favourite! HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! (:
and then here i am! (:

everything's here.

2008-08-23T16:38:00.000-05:00

everything went against what was previously planned for. damnit lahh! i do not fancy cancelling on plans and yadayadayada. its inconvenient and pretty much annoying for the other party! i know- cause i've felt such before.
i miss my boyfriend for every other reason. it sucks to know that he has exams while i have my supposed holidays. anandddd! im so sorry for not being able to spend the time that we both deserve. but you're always in my mind; that i'm sure of. why dont you like move over to semb?! HAHA! at least we can pretend to bump into each other. smart, no?! HAHA! (: and it doesnt mean that- we dont meet and i dont care anymore! my eyes are on you! HAHAHA! i sound like a psycho. (: anand is a sweetheart. (:
and i miss my bestfriend too. ): it feels like bloody long since we last caught up with each other. it just sucks. we've got loads of issues to be settled and talked about. when eh?! no matter what- i am always here, all right. do not be a retard! HAHAHA! (: you rock my orange socks, please! (: HURRY! and you live near me. how wonderful lahhhh. ): "... Just like how i watch over you in sembawang (: ... Love,that hot handsome bestfriend,shawn."

and i suck in arcade. i suckk! or maybe afiq's just better at it! HAHAHA! i am a champion in air-hockey lahhh! unfair! he very much distracted me away from it. whichever lahhh! time crisis, basketball- everything! damnit lahh! HAHA! but the one game which we showed great partnership was this gogo-ball?! HAHA! but we both felt like idiots at one point in time. kids, nowadays! HAHA! he is the bigger idiot, of course. (: and he eats vegetables like cheese fries! what's wrong with you?! HAHA! (: from valueshop, horizon, arcade, popular, school. (: awesome, awesome timeee! (: he makes me feel stupid. not very welcoming! HAHAHA! (: but he is a wonderful fella ehh! great friendship out of my firstyear.semestertwo. (: high-fiveee! (: HAHAHA! (: bring it on with the dance moves, you floorball-er! HAHA! (:
sharonnnnn! (: im very much happy for you, please! (: awesome to the maximum ahh! HAHAHA! (: i see a bright future ahead. mac's a super-duper place to just hang out and talkkk. and stone. get mocked at and mock people back! HAHAHA! friendships can be made at the most odd places at the awkward moments. (: im right here with you babe! (:
meeting @ somerset with the prabhu, desmond, hanis, khalis, siti, stephen, another-hanis. (: from burgerking to coffeebean! woohooooo! (: a lot of things were covered. and nooo- im not a blonde! basket! hahahaha! (: a lot of things needs to be done, we foresee. but it is going to be total love! (: weeeeeee! (: with jokes, inside-news- they are one weird bunch. (: HAHA! then off to meet anand & his friends at clementi! cards were played, laughter was shared and bullying was done! rushed back home with the boyfriend by the side. (: he gets me going, yes! i love youuu! (:

ben: lets meet on saturday.
anand: no.
ben: monday.
anand: no.
ben: you dont like me anymoreeeeee!
anand: hahaha! we shall just await for the day to come by and take it along. planning ahead doesnt allow you to follow it, does it?
ben: you dont like me anymoreeeeee!
anand: i love you! haha!

because i love my life. (:

and my old faded blue jeans.

2008-08-18T16:11:00.004-05:00

post was edited. (: [due to major messiness.]

+ second year anniversary was full of love, fun, joy and laughter. i love you so much, anand chandrasekaran. (:
+ sorry to sharonnn & afiqqq. monday sucks my toes. and relatives arent very exciting.
+ shawnnny would rather help anand first in times of trouble. because 'guys' problems are usually more serious whatttt'. do not 'whatttt' me.
+ ljayyy is really awesome. should i move permanently? hmmm....
+ happy wonderful birthday to rameshhh! (: god bless you always, yes! (:
+ anand- go get your headaches checked upon. and exams are coming right up tomorrow. all the best, my love. i know you're like some smarty-pants fella- but still- health is wealth. and silence is golden! HAHA! (:
+ tuesday (meeting.training). wednesday (bestfriend!). thursday (afiqqu!training. bestfriend!). friday (anandadadada!).
+ should i move on to ljayy?!
+ i suck at making decisions even with choices.
+ do you know- i prefer bus rides to train ones? (:

yeah, let's rewind.

2008-08-16T00:00:00.004-05:00

my boyfriend. my love. my anand. (:

a very happy 2nd year anniversary to you, sweet! (: i love you so much! till the world wants to spin anti-clockwise! (:
you make the best-est boyfriend (not that i've got 6293 ex-s before), the awesome-st, coolest, sweetest, loveliest & all the good-est in the whole wide universe! (: and then the milky way! (:
you rock because i annoy the crap out of you, make you do stupid things, i do stupid things and embarrass you, you pamper me like god-knows-what. you make me feel as though im the hottest, prettiest, coolest, funniest and all the other good -est as well (show-off ah: HAHA!). (: you're not afraid to be yourself anywhere, anytime and expect the same from me. (: damn- you're like love ahh! (:
time flies really fast and slow as well. at one point in time i cant believe we're already two years but the next im like- only two years? HAHA! (: confused? either way- im damn happy to have spent wonderful time with you and looking forward to awesome ones. you make a great friend! i still remember our millennia times very much! funny, please! and no- i tell people the truth about our beginning and the happenings of our relationship okayy!
i l o v e y o u s o m u c h . (:

2008-08-13T01:26:00.000-05:00

my body is pretty much aching like everywhere. HAHAHA! (: but really.
and countdown is over ahhhhhh! school's over; finally. i will be missing most of the crazy classmates from the five classes. but im looking forward to semester two! with my course getting more tedious and me burying myself even deeper- im sure it will be all about fun, joy & laughter.
i have yet to do my rjayyy. and i've got things to attend to later. and the next day, the next day too. and the next day too! HAHAHA! lack of sleep makes me retarded. HAHA! (: i wish to go out everyday to enjoyy. and not have something relating back to school and stuff. pleaseee! where are all my friends?! HAHAHA! im making myself sound pathetic. and then we take pretty pictures, no?! because we've got only three weeks to save the world. HAHA! (: LAME! (:

pp-pppp needs to be done. like actually get started upon. someone please whack me. please.

p.s.: ignore. (: ohmygoodness. i sound stupid. and no, dont tell me- i am stupid. HAHA! (:
goodbye, my friends & strangers. (: cheyy- strangers! arghhh! i should stop scaring myself and you guys!

it might change my memory.

2008-08-07T00:45:00.001-05:00

wednesday- 0608: farewell party with the material scientists. paper-roses making session with afiqq. shawn & godfrey @ khatib's macs.thursday- 0708: PP-madness, workshop, Arts House. no shawnnny-dinner. sad, no?
~~friday, saturday & sunday: anand away @ penang with the family. burn lahhh.~~
tuesday- seoul garden with the lovelyyy chemists. woohooo! (:

4 more lessons to go before the end of semester. and i am actually damn excited to get down to studying! HAHA! rocking, no?! maybe because of the shawn and the godfreyy- they give me the inspiration ahh! wahh! HAHAHA! (: &&&- i really wanna revise. and do my PP. last minute, it maybe. ecstatic ahh! HAHAHA! (: im so used to changing class everyday, that i dont know how isit going to be like having the same class for 16weeks- if i do get one class throughout.
nine more days to our 2nd year anniversary. (: like oh my goodness lahhh. i love you eh, boyfriendd! (:
anand can really smile damn wide ahh! he's hot, please! HAHAHA! (: and yes- we make an awesome coupleee. he turns my frown upside down. (:

stickers make me happy. (:

we will change reality.

2008-07-30T21:03:00.001-05:00

none of you knows how it feels to get cornered in such a painful wayy. seriously! and it hurts lahh! HAHAHA! (: no, afiqq- this is not funny! wait till the forfeits are put in place and the drama unfolds. cheyy! (: HAHAHA! (: &&&- you're my awesome idiotic friend, pleasee! (: nobody can beat you to it! (: HAHAHA! (: i always lose lahhhh. one fine day- i am going to become the champion of the champions in checkers. HAHA! (: bless thy souls. (: cheeseeee fries! (:

and speee was wonderful on monday with the anand's friends. (: they are random, weird, funny, crazy and nice all at the same timee! (: i think i gave horrible vibes towards them. (: sorry! school was missed on tuesday. and today's lesson was like super happening! (: cant wait for the Tea Party next week ahh! AHAHAHAH! (: i sense oreo cheesecake, do you?! (: tomorrow there's a workshop, movieeee (?) and dinner with the shawnnny! (: shawnnny has been a very good boy studying for his a's. cheyy! my fighter pilot bestfriend! (: i am super proud of you ahh! (: &&&- anand, get well soon all right! the oh-so-sad-voice does not sound sexy on youu! HAHA! (: i love you ahh! (:

"you love your nephew and niece lot. & tell me that everyone looks like your nephew.
you hate my brother because you are JEALOUS."
(:

can we all go on a date and waste our lives away...? (:
please do not annoy me at this moment in time. (:

like jesus to a child.

2008-07-26T15:09:00.000-05:00

the two precious ones in my lifeee! (:
& they are both very retarded. and if you ask me why am i such- you should hang out with them! HAHA! (:
anand- all the best for your soccer matches, please. pure will so rock on lahh! HAHA! (: your friends are funny ahh. and im so sorry- my family's being an annoyance and is not allowing me to leave my homee today! HAHA! oh have i mentioned? my boyfriend sends me oh-so-sweet lines from songs. (: and then even physics seems so easy! HAHA! (: oh yes- for your amazing race too- lucks! my boyfriend is like so happening ah! can i be anymore boring?! HAHA! (:
by the way- my wish has came true! im in the middle of shawn & anand. realised?! HAHAHA! so sweet lahh, they! (: and my first picture with the bestfriend alone, please! i know- after three years. like that matters! HAHA!
ignite was the awesome ahh! EIC was love. (: HAHA! prabhu really did make lennon proud! HAHA! (: such a rocker, he is. (: and i learned stuff about cameras from desmond! OH MY GOD! photography is such a in-thing! media passes. (: enjoyed well with sharon, prabhu, desmond & mae. (: going to give today's session a miss. depressing, i know. went to give a visit to anand & subra for awhile at pizzahut after the whole event then. (:
thank youuu afiq! (: that matters. (: & shawn and anand's idea is like so mean! HAHAHHA! (:
OH YEAH! i suck at checkers and minesweeper lahh. oh my goodness! i lost to prabhu, desmond, afiq, lokhan. and i need 100 years and 10 years to master checkers and minesweeper respectively as said by afiq and lokhan. with that shaam. wahhh. bloody action ahh that group! HAHA! and no, im not going to give up. (: they make me crazy. (: HAHAHA! (: i adore.
i love my itouchh! (: HAHA! because it makes me ecstatic. (: & my brother's legendary phone needs to go back to my brother. HAHAHA! my T4 makes pretty things look prettier. technology makes my world spin anti-clockwise. (:

we can sit here and laugh.

2008-07-23T19:12:00.000-05:00

& that's why my bestfriend rocks my world. (:
he can definitely make my sickness go awayyy. HAH! i was laughing and smiling like crazy lahh! (: and he was extremely happy colouring my skin brown! idiot. (:he's cool like that! (:
thank you so much! he sends awesome msgs to start the day off wonderfully. (: he nudges me online when he's bored. he's always there for me- even at 3.30am and after. he keeps me sane and makes me go insane! & a lot more, please! (: HAHAHA! (: three years of friendship & i can safely say that- my bestfriend, he is. (:

p.s.: do not take any offense cause of the drawings. it has nothing to do with you, you or anyone around you. (: its called best-friendship. (:
p.p.s: anand & shawn can really insult people! HAHAHA! (: but they are my loves. (: & my wish: can we three take a picture & i be in my middle? please? HAHAHA! like so cool lahhh!

now they consult a psychic.

2008-07-21T22:55:00.000-05:00

i've been an annoyance to anand, honestly. i've always been one. but this time like damn exceptional. which is not even remotely funny lahh please! HAHA! (: but but but- i love him a lot ah. i promise. cute?! HAHA! (:
and something's bloody wrong with the touch. damnit- the itunes isnt opening up on its own or opening up even when i click it. depressing ah. the only thing i hear now is me typing. HAHAHA! which is actually cool. type type type. OH MY! i remember once posting such a very long time ago- about how much i loved typing and i typed crap. HAHA! so secondary school.
& my wireless sucks my toes lahh. damnit! it keeps going on and off. like funny ahh? i know for sure i irritate many in msn! HAHA! sorry, my beings.
one more test for each of my modules. and its like over. hallelujah! (: sing with me. &&&- then 3 weeks of holidays. i can foresee many issues! HAHA!
IM SICK! ): i do not like falling sick. it kills trees. and it kills me. that rhymes! HAHA! but yes. im sad cause im sick- really! make my day, please. (: do you know the president is like so visiting rpeee tomorrow?! HAHA! exciting ahh! and we shall bond together as a group- because thats what matters. (:
all the best to rpeee for the pol-ite, please! (: & movie on thursday, no?! HAHA! (:

hayleyy: im here for you, all right. last sunday was just a miss! HAHA! but yes. im sure you'll be fine very, very soon. but anytime anywhere- im here for youuu bestiee. (: *she seriously rocks lahh. she's one person who is not afraid to speak her mind and not hurt anyone either. she's one great friend to have! (: whom i very much adore. (:
shawnnny: thursday nights! (: of bestfriends and food. hotfudge sundae, please! if i can slack under a block anytime- you will be the first who will come to my mind. you're such a sembawang makkal, please! *he is such a love! and he's one great bestfriend that everyone should learn from. cause if im wrong- he will tell me im wrong and not try to be nice! (:
anandaaa: this fella! (: you're there when i need someone to share my happiness with, my sorrows with, my anger with... you're always there. even if i want to be left alone- i know i can count on you to catch me if i fall. you're simply the music to my ears. (: *if i had the chance to get a million dollars or choose my boyfriend; i will choose the million bucks, of course! HAHAHA! noooo, you idiots. (: my boyfriend. cause he's worth more than a gazillion and a lot more. he knows when to shut me up when i whine and when to listen. you are a sweetheart. (:
+ i've been contact with the above loved ones for three years already. rem? the best things out of millennia. (:
i need to stop blogging so long. and the font size is so small- it hurts! HAHA! im sorry to those who have to strain. increase the size by : ctrl ++. (: it does wonders. cause im in love and will always be. (:

the voices inside my head.

2008-07-19T23:26:00.001-05:00

i've got no idea whether have i been embarrassed to admit that i listen to backstreet boys or go to the library to study or even to read books? but im not!
i viewed some people's friendster and they state 'what are books?!' and stuff. seriously- how is that even cool?! some of my friends might even have such- im so sorry. but this is how i feel lahh! and going to the library doesnt make you a nerd, clubbing doesnt make you all-that either.
oh- im damn happy for being an indian lahh! im not ashamed of it either. im much more comfortable speaking english. & like that's wrong! and i freaking understand tamil. do not try to make me look stupid and end up being the stupid one!
i am going to re-read my past entries! and laugh at myself! & then a walk with the family. (: HAHA! now, these are the in-things! HAHAHAHA! (: so cool lahhh! (: nowadays im sleeping at 3plus almost everydayy. arghh!

had loads of fun with sharon, prabhu & desmond on thursdayy ah! (: awesome. HAHA! randomness is very much loved. &&&- dinner with the bestfriend then. such a floorballer lahh! HAHA! (: woohooo! he thought i would cancel it once again. baskettt! i've got a much more flexible 'time-table' now okayy! tell me when you're free! cheyy! HAHAHA! more to come, no?! thursday was very much loved! (:
friday- greatness! other than sleeping at 3plus after having a wonderful chat with sharon and then anand- the day went beyond wonderful. (: it was math! HAHA! thanks to my group mates for making it less painful. HAHA! (: then utttt! sialahh! math uttt! afiq got whacked. like seriously- upside down. HAHAHAHA! poor fella. and things happened thereafter. HAHA! p a p e r r o s e s . (: i loveeee. thankyousomuch, afiqqu! (: i told you, you rockkk! (:

do you know airport is so much more fun when you're there with your loved ones?! anand showed me that. & you do not have to go there to receive or send off your relatives with fake smiles and uttering oh-so-sweet-words.
getting pushed around in the trolley, going through a date with 4dollars, pursuit of happyness, long bus journeys, catching and dumbass pictures! (: sweet, no?! &&&- my anand is seriously the best. i've heard enough stories from many people regarding the issue on trust. i can safely say that- he's like a miracle lahh! (:i've got no idea why am i smiling like that and why is anand not smiling at all. we are such a super-couple lahh! HAHAHA! (: i love you, please! (:
my boyfriend is like so funny lahh! HAHAHA! (: retarded too. &&&- no offense to anyone, yes! (: this is all for fun, joy & laughter. loveee!

where do i turn?

2008-07-16T02:22:00.000-05:00

happy 23rd, my boyfriend. (: i love you so much, please!
you're so pre-occupied with another's love-life ahh. and nobody tricks anand except me. cheyy! HAHA! (: but yes. he rocks my projectshop.bloodbrothers' upside down inside out.
thank you for everything, love. you're one guy whom i treasure very much.
but but- do you guys know that i found anand super annoying? that was my first impression of him. really ahh. beyond noisy. damn act-funny ahh! HAHAHA! (: but he was- but whichever lahh. he's like so the boyfriend ahh. (:
one more month to 2years, no? (: hugs!
anand said: you sound like shawn & me, ben.
HAHAHAHAHA! (: noooo. i sound like myself lahhh! bleah. burn burn. (:

i miss deb. (: she was the very first person to call me such- 'ben'. like seriously. people used to call me all kind of lame nicks and then 'ben' came along. and it stayed along till now. sometimes i dont even realise it's a guy's name. dont caree ah. HAHA! (: 'ben' is nice. (: 'benazir' is like so foreign. but i love. (:
can we keep in contact till ever, please? HAHA! (: to whomever it may concern. once again- not pin-pointing down at anyone. (:
i hear kittens. awww. kittens & hamsters are love. redbull is awesome. m&m is the in-thing. we save cheetahs, yes! (:
14th month- i swear i love you so much, dad. i miss you so much. i'd give up anything and anyone just for another chance. i will.

maybe i'll tangle in the power lines.

2008-07-13T20:54:00.000-05:00

i do not like going grocery shopping at markets. people brush against you, stare at you and there is not much space for anything. seriously lahh! i do not like it! arghh! the only reason i actually go there is to accompany my mum! yes- i am nice! HAHAHA! (: and carrying vegetables and meat is like soooo heavy!
&&&- i do not like stereotypical ideas! they are stupid and redundant! damnit lahhh!
there's about four more weeks to go. yayy! (: HAHA! and then three weeks of holidays! i am very much excited.

have you ever wondered who are your real friends? cause the ones whom i thought were, turned out to be horrible. and i have very few close friends now! HAHA! but i love everyone ahh. if you know more than my name, my schools and we have very little awkward short conversations- you rock my world ahh! (: of course, vice versa. (:
it just sucks to have trust someone and then get backstabbed by him/ her. not implying to anything or anyone. HAHAHA! (:
emo, no?!

random post, it maybe. (:

come fly me.

2008-07-09T23:57:00.000-05:00

i really want to cut my hair. (: my hair is so long... long. troublesome! HAHA! but but- i wanna do a lot of things to my hair- not dye it, straighten/rebond it etc. i do not wish to do that ever! HAHA! just do different styles. cheyy! but its like freaking layered ah. top to bottom. boo-crappy-hoo, can. HAHA!
bestfriend- get well soon, all right. (: take care of yourself! because the hyper-shawnnny is very much needed! and you are so going to rockk ah! loveee! (: tomorrowwww! (: yayyy! (:
my migraines are coming more often and i hate it. my left-side. arghh! burn lahhh!
lost my mood lahhh!
pretty colour papers, notebooks, colour pens- please. (: and i will be happy. HAHA!

the captain seemed to understand...

2008-07-06T19:58:00.000-05:00

date on saturday went beyond well. (: but the anand was not being very cooperative- so, no pictures. (:

HAHA! (: life has been going well. i think. im depressed of not being depressed! HAHAHA! (: i know- sickkk. whichever. and why isit that i already anticipate people asking me about it... HAHA! (: & i might even tell. lalala. (:
but i love each & everyone of you. really. (: and if i were to die like the next second, you guys have been in my thoughts. (:

there's no map or compass.

2008-07-03T00:58:00.001-05:00

like happy birthday qaleefathullah! 19 years and 2 days old. (: HAHA! (: i know- cool name, yes! (: he hates me and he's ever ready to kill me. but heckk- he rocks ah! all the best and good luck in everything that you do, no? im sure you'll ace your A's ahh. for the short period of time i had him as my classmate- he's funny ahh! HAHA! (: god bless you always. his mum's food is like awesome! yummyy! aunty super adorable. (:

Anand. says:
baby baby
Anand. says:
oh my baby
Anand. says:
dont you worry
benazir. says:
i can multi-task rightt.
Anand. says:
we will marry
benazir. says:
hahaha! (:
Anand. says:
sorry ah not like you righty
Anand. says:
wah action bedah siol
Anand. says:
bedeh*
benazir. says:
i know- i am the best ahh! HHAHAH! (:
Anand. says:
hahaha you are so the best pls
benazir. says:
like duh! HAHAHAHA! (:

because he is my sweetheart. (: can i put him in a box and bring him around?! (: i love you, anand chandrasekaran. (: simple amusements.

conversations with my thirteen-year-old self.

2008-06-30T21:51:00.002-05:00

because with that- i can survive my days through. (:
& i miss pictures with hayl & nic! idiotic? nevertheless, i love them lahh! (:

i am going to buy random nonsense for no rhyme or reason. &&&- i am going to get textbooks! HAHA! damnit lahh- so much for being a paperless school. toes lahh! and i will be studying like a fool when the semester ends. i do not like choosing modules. it's like so retarded, can? HAHA! got so many options. i cant choose from this and that; now i have- this, that plus later and the before including the during. i cannot! i'd rather just do what i am being told to do. so much easier. (:
met anand after 7-freaking-days! i know. HAHAHA! (: i miss him so much. and seeing the lamer made me happy. (: i suggest burning his feet cause he doesnt learn from his mistakes. do not play soccer with your bare feet. simple right? he makes me laugh like a loser and then asks me to shut up. &&&- i choked on my drink lehh! boo-crappy-hoo! HAHAHHA! (: i love himmm. he's such a sexything! (:
shawnnny- no worries all right! (: cause you are the best and the friend; thus bestfriend! (: HAHA! (: lame? im like so here lahh, can. just a few blocks away. (: karthi- cant wait for our date on wed please! (: she's picking me up. how cool is that?! HAHA! (: i love you so muchh! (:
so many things happening this week. s o m a n y . i didnt even know there was chem test today. shoot me! (: i am going to irritate my mum now.

feel the morning sun.

2008-06-27T01:16:00.000-05:00

* because i miss secondary school days.
* somehow- i miss millennia too.
* i miss spending doing nothing almost everyday
* i miss my dad; beyond anything. (:
* school's getting a toll on me and i just want to cripple & die. (:
* but i know life will not get any better with the wonderful people around me.

6 more weeks before this semester comes to an end. its not very funny when you need to go to different classes everyday. it almost becomes annoying! (: HAHAHA! (: but i thank the Lord that there are people like afiq & lava! (: afiq is such an entertainment. HAHA! he rocks my socks, no? HAHA! (: &&&- lava is just so cool lahh! (: she's super funnyy! (: f u n n y. even my year1.sem2 classes rocked because of them and a few other dumbdumbs! HAHA! (: i love you guys lahhhh! (:
i feel that this week is horrible. seriously. as much as things got better in the end, they were just horrible to begin with. & no, if i wanted to say what they were i would have. so nope, my sweethearts. (:
sharon is such a sharon! (: i love her so. HAHA! with her around- school seems so much more fun and wonderful. that SAS camp rocks lahh! we've been through crap and love-love times! thank you so much for always being there! you know what- we rock! HAHAHA! (: our journal is so getting filled ah. time to get another one! HAHAHAHA! (: inside-joke, it shall be. (:
i've realised that i need to change, add, remove a lot of people's links. lalala. & you think you can play your dirty tricks with me... burn you. (:

i get all choked up inside.

2008-06-22T19:50:00.000-05:00

a date with the boyfriend on the saturday; where we practically did nothing but just had fun with each other's company. (: i surprised him well enough. i so rock la okayy! HAHA! (: &&&- Helen is love. HAHA! more shopping there, no?! bus-rides are amazing with anand. i do not like people cutting queue. annoying lahh! and i believe that everyone deserves some form of rest- unless they push you to the limit- heck themm! (: nope, you dont know what/ who am i talking about. (:

do you know shawn's place is like best place to hang out?! HAHA! (:
the awesome-st indian people in my life. they rock my world so much- that i get dizzy! (: HAHA! (: floorball was played- with them around, floorball is so rocking fun laaaa! (: i so dont display vengeance and hatred laaa! that's because of shawn's behaviour alone! whack himmm! HAHA! (:
& no karthi, i called both of you sluts. HAHA! but you know, i didnt mean it! (: i love youuu!
'taitee' was played in a much more fun wayy! (: sembawang versus choa chu kang makkals! HAHA! (: sembawang so won lahhh! idiotic anand & karthi! HAHA! we had so many '1/2' and '2/3's lahhh! and our points were so much more! NO- ANAND DO NOT ARGUE! HAHA! (: i love such random meet-ups. bestfriend rocks. (:
we were suppose to catch a movie but decided against; with rite-pizza on the wayy! (: poor delivery-guy. 10bucks! HAHA! (: and oh yes- shawn's family is like damn funny lahhh! they so rockk! (: adorable sister, cute father and comical mother! (: all in a good wayy! HAHA! shawn is such a loser lahhh! HAHAHA! (:

& one more time- i love my boyfriend, my bestfriend & my trackLOVE. (: dont you too?!

starlight, starbright...

2008-06-21T00:39:00.001-05:00

happy 18th, logananana! (: HAHA! check out his cool pose in the picture. my sembawang makkal is such a coolness lahh! HAHA! he can be a total entertainer! HAHA! (: seriously- you're such a funny fella. thanks for all the random moments. i hope everything goes beyond well for you. yes, two days late. but my wishes for you are like so sincere please. such a legal 18-year-old. (: legal logan! HAHAHA! (: im still going to so win you like 10-0 in floorball! with anand along- woahh! might be 20-0. HAHAHAHA! (: action? HAHA! (:

a very happy birthday to my bestie! (: yayy! 20 already. HAHA! (: it has been 7589092 years since we last met. yes, its my fault. so sorry! (: i wish you the best in everything that you do and for you to get whatever that you may wish for. thank you for all the advises, random talks, dinners and just plain chatting! because. (: i feel damn fortunate to have you as my friend. always remember that i am always here for youuu; just like you. (: did you realise- we've not taken any picture together?! that's horrible and its about time! HAHA! (: i love you so much babe! (:

sleeping at 2am and waking up at 5.30am is not a very wise choice. stupid? go run around the your dining table. (:

take a look at my girlfriend.

2008-06-13T22:45:00.003-05:00

yes- we did! (: HAHA! im proud to say that i've finally managed to have done a thing before i turn 21! HAHA! cheyy! 100608 till 120608 was the most awesome-st time ever! and you know what- it wouldnt have been possible with the wonderful people who came! yayy! (: i love you guys so much ahh.
the above is anand! yes- obviously, yes! HAHA! if you know me- you should know anand even better! HAHA! cause he's so the boyfriend laaa! (: he pitched the tent, cleaned the place, washed clothes, bought food and kept me entertained! i was useless. HAHA! (: he's such a sweetheart, im like serious. he can be a house-husband! HAHA! but you should never give him a psp with virtual tennis in it. he's also pretty lazy! HAHAHA! but without him- i'd've hyperventilated and disappear into air! i love my anand! so, the first fella is my bestfriend, the second babe is my trackLove, third one is stanleyyy & the last one is teo kenghee! (: these are the sweethearts who made the stayover to a better one! (: and i thank each one of them for everythinggg! (:
1st day: it was beyond horrible weather. downpour- anand's bag, tent and everything was drenched to the maximum. after we moved to another place, another downpour! and im glad anand was there. we got enough sleep, went for walks, took oh-so-sweet pictures, played cards like crazy and just had fun with each other's company. (: anand's damn adorable laaaaa! HAHAHA!
2nd day: firstly, we celebrated stanley's belated birthday! woohooo! (: he was like 'im like so touched laa. and im like so surprised laa.' HAHA! he was the one whom i actually thought is very unfriendly and scary to approach; &&&- he's the one who made me laugh like mad as well. shawn was being an idiot by wanting to go home and not sleepover! stanleyy too! but nooo- we made them stayover! HAHAHA! (: we ate, took photos (of course), slacked. seriously- we defined the term 'slacking' then! HAHA! shawnnny & karthi's little arguements/ quarreling made the night even younger! HAHAHA! they are such kukus- whom i adore. (: seeing karthi after so damn long was great, seriously! it has just been too long! she got me chocolates & a keychain 'ben' from newyork. so sweet righttt! HAHA! ohmygod! damn sweet laaa! HAHA! (: and shawn didnt bring the floorball, soccer, 'because i wasnt planning to stay and also- where to play, righttt?'. idiot. kenghee left earlyy though. i had so much fun exchanging ghost stories at ungodly time! HAHA! and i so won kenghee in 'tai tee'. i feel so proud of myself. HAHA! no betting though. we also played the 'punching' game. we exchanged stories of life. (: kenghee left early though- he couldnt sleep in the tent! HAHA! (:
3rd day: then- after much suffering to sleep- we managed to get some sleep. packed the stuff, went to woodlands & had lunch- hungryyy! and came back home to entertain my uncle. yeah, i know. HAHA! (: thanks to each & everyone of you to come by! (: hugs. (:with them around- life is a bliss. seriously- the best things out of MI. (: HAHA! (: another sleepover at someone's place, yes! HAHA! (: *you guys should so enlarge the picture aboveee la! HAHA! damn cool! (:
i missed the aloud-gang's stayover! ): saddening, no. dinner/ sleepovers soon. i miss them so. (: but they had funnn! & sharon's back from malaysia! finally babe! HAHA! she's one fun north-indian babe! HAHA! sexyyy too! HAHA! (: seriously. she rocks my socks inside out. a lot of moments to be exchanged. one session is over! HAHA! (:
school's reopening. i still have two very important stuff to be done by sunday! bless me.

13 months: 15th- dad, i love you so much, i swear. im missing you.
22nd with the anand: 16th- you're the bestest of the best. (:

a whole new world.

2008-06-09T23:08:00.001-05:00

you know what's awesome?! meeting up with the best people in your life after such a long time; practically doing nothing!
apart from the fact that kenghee and i were stranded outside shawn's house for 45mins and shawn not answering the numerous calls- everything went beyond well! (: HAHA! (: anand, caier and stanley joined us after sometime. (: we played cards, floorball, took dumbass pictures and just talked nonsense! (: what's there not to enjoy, right! i love my life! HAHA! (: we ate junk food and saw each other's stupidity. the guys took wonderful pictures! HAHA! (: gays. (:
the above happened on wednesday. (: then on thursday & friday- we had training & friendlies! the seniors rock laaa! watching them play is so fascinating. HAHA! (: but we played games too- i can safely say that i remember most of their names. yayy! (: my angel rocks and i hope my mortal likes the stuff too. i need to get a lot of stuff; seriously! (: maybe- i should rob a bank or steal from my family. HAHA!
friday- suppose to meet shawn. but he slept through. sweet, no?
saturday- date with anand. i had fun, fun, fun! the random talkings. then met up with the shawn & the logan! played floorball. i so rock laaa. seriously- i won anand 5-1, lost to shawn 4-5. and played tag team against the yishun sec boys! HAHA! (: they used violence against us. and i didnt get to play against logan cause i whacked logan a lot with the stick and the ball! HAHA! (: drank a lot of soft-drinks. i was perspiring like crazy! took pictures! photography is fun! (:
i miss karthi so much laaa! cant wait for her to get back. it has been 89120973482 years since we've last met. she's the best ceylonese girlfriend ever! (: HAHA!

3days/ 2nights. (: anand, shawn, karthi, kenghee, stanley. pretty pictures on their way!

please, send my love to everybody.

2008-05-31T23:09:00.000-05:00

happy birthday my dearest fiona tan aiping! (: you're such a sweetheart, i swear. (: i miss you so much. i pray for the best for you. all the best in everything that you do. you're very much loved. its about time we meet and take crazy pictures and practically spend our time just talking! (: thank you for always being there for me 24/7. you're the best nurse singapore is going to see! (: you're such a wonderful friend that everyone must treasure- and im definitely one of the lucky ones! i hope you had a the best time of your life! (: someone is super legal! HAHA! (:

i was away from school for 5days. and i had fun, fun, fun! (: everything except certain parts were fun! my whole group had fun sleeping throughout certain talks and ceremonies. HAHA! (: ghost stories were exchanged, loads & loads & loads of photos were taken, less than 10hours of sleep was had, dumbass dares were done, won prizes, crazy games- got chased out, scolded, scared, tired and everything. im glad my room-mate was love! (: my group were full of interesting people in their own ways. im glad to say that we didnt have certain cliques but just hang out with each other whenever we want with whoever. i miss them; honestly. (: stories shall be told face-to-face. (:
&&&- i miss you, idiots too! (: HAHA! from rp to write to touch rug to family to friends t0 love. it felt so new when we came back after 4 days. all the familiar faces, places, food! HAHA! and my mum's hugs, brothers' nonsense. the random talks with my beautiful friends, meet ups with the write people. the trainings! I MISS YOU GUYS EH! (: HAHA! (:
i've got touch rug camp coming up, 'sleepover' with the write-gang, night out with the boyfriend and friends, catching up with my family-sweethearts. (: i love each and everyone of you.

laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair.

2008-05-24T16:32:00.000-05:00

anand's such a weirdo. (: making him all the more the 'anand' he is. (:

school has been busy. with tests, people, ig(s) and loads more. i have been going to school so early that i can actually see the sunrise and going back home at 11plus. you know what is sad? sad is- me not being able to talk to my beloved family people as much as i used to. sad is- only being able to see them asleep when i leave home and reach home. sad is-. HAHA! emo, no? (:
and im bloody tired. tired is an understatement. i need the upcoming holiday! yes! (:
for a week, i'll be away from home and school. wonderful. (: &&&- can't wait for the sleepover! exciting, exciting, exciting! (: can we all just be merry & have a picnic, sweetheart?! (: HAHA!
i miss my year1, sem1 class. (: the times we skipped together as a class, annoyed the crap out of the facis, lunch, weird presentations, the ways we troubled each other by asking questions! HAHAHA! funny, no? it is so rare to see all of you guys. pictures are love. (: farhana, aishah, iqa. (:
yes, of course- i miss my sem2 class as well. (: random happenings, the persuasion done to each other to skip class, 'hatred' we shared. i love! (: HAHA! (: im glad that at least some of us are still in close contact. maybe- it's cause we're in the same class at times. but we still acknowledge each other unlike some people, i know! sad, no? classes can actually be tolerated; thanks to these souls. (: syaz, lava. (:

i wanted to keep this post short. but noooo. and it's raining! yayy! (:
things needs to be bought. goodbye, loves. (:

2008-05-18T22:03:00.001-05:00

hello! (:
hiatus' off. (:

i do not like falling sick. i do not like getting injuries. i do not like annoyances. i do not like...
HAHA! (: after such a break- i write such. cause i have gone through the above many a times during the disappearance. sad, no?
2 more weeks before pre-u sem is over. 3 more weeks to helicon camp. 3 more weeks to holidays. bless us! i need a break from changing classes for 5 days.
pp needs to be started on. articles needs to be thought of. &&&- most importantly- i need to meet my beloved friends. this, i swear! i need them! you dont know how much it sucks. really! but you know what rocks my world? they're always there! i love each & everyone of youu! (:
&&&- anand's away in batam with his family. seriously- his family has the most random people ever! if you know him & his family- then you'd understand! HAHA! whichever. (:

i am going to happily live my secondary school times by decorating my notebook with the pretty colourpens bought. &&&- my hair is so long that i can strangle myself with it. HAHA! not exactly- but yeaaa.

well, don't waste time.

2008-04-01T21:43:00.000-05:00

hiatus. (:

2008-03-22T22:06:00.001-05:00

my 20th.
thank you so much to:
becky, fath, sameera, mahes, anand, deb, fiona, farzana, faizal, kenghee, qaleefathullah, maj, shawn, karthi, caier, omar, hassan, thahasina, mastura, taufiq, sameena. (:
my beloved family. (:
i love you all so much laaa! thank you for the early, on time, later wishes! HAHA! (: whatever it may be i treasure your wishes & your presence! loveee! (:

im in love with technology! HAHA! although it can be such an annoyance! seriously!
my family bought for me many things for my wardrobe! more at the end of the month. dinner with family later. (: & new havaianas. i swear anybody who goes block-shopping now- will get some dumbass allergies! HAHA! & maybe- i wont trip much! i trip too much! HAHA!
& my anand! he's such an angel! he got me a digital camera! I KNOW! HAHA! sony t2. i love you! HAHA! he made me go arnd causeway point- just so that he can surprise me. he did it well. he wrapped the camera six times over & over. with sweet, sweet msgs in between. lovely birthday card! & mind you- he isnt great with surprises! BUT- he's such a love la! GOODNESS! i love him so. we had a great lunch, wonderful shopping. with such a lovely camera- more clearer pictures of lovely people! tell me- anand's the best! HAHA! (: HUGS!

20 is wonderful! HAHA! no longer a teen. as sad as it seems- the start has been beyond wonderful. (: the only thing amiss- the person behind my name. hugs.

whatever it is, im grateful.

2008-03-16T11:23:00.001-05:00

11th. days may be increasing; but you're always right by me. (: i know. i love you so much dad. (:

this past week has been beyond busy! honestly. i do not want to say what's happening & blabla. cause it's even more tiring to reiterate so many times! (: but i do have a lot of happening times with sharon! she's such a great friend. (: yay! a lot of meet ups with prabhu, hanis, desmond- mostly. at times with nadia, khalis. they are one crazy bunch! so different yet so similar. (:
& i might be going back to work from this week. i actually miss that place; a little. although the timings can literally kill me. but heck- (:

thanks a lot to:
*anand; always listening to my whining. since day one of our friendship till now. (: im blessed. pillar of strength. thank you! (: you really do know how to make my day better, much better.
*deb; our physical distance is super duper long. but i know that you're always there for me. i miss you so much, honestly. (: im here for you too, yes. dont you dare forget! (: hehe.
*shawn; although you may always be lazy & whatnot- HAHA. thanks for hearing me out. paddle pop! (: i really want that! haha. but really- thank you so much. (:
with great people like the above- no wonder life still seems to be much more tolerable. love is such a sweet little thing. (:

&&&- anand chandrasekaran. (: i love you so much!
happy 19th, my love! nineteenth months through the best and worse times of both our lives. & i know its more than safe to say we've been through much happier moments. ecstatic. (: rock on. im missing you. (:

yes- this is more like a 'thank-you' post. cause they deserve this & much more. (: HAHA! thanks to every little specimen out there who has made a difference directly or indirectly. i might not even realise it yet. but- thanks. (: assurance/ reassurance is essential. (:

all that i've become.

2008-03-11T23:41:00.000-05:00

hello, you! (:
i've been horribly busy! & i still have lots more to finish upon. what an idiot, i am!
anyways- i dont seem to be having holidays cause im always out. out = dealing with school stuff. damn la! the last time i ate at home was weeks ago. horrible.
anyways- i've put my work on hold for this week. i seriously wanted this week to rest or whichever. rot at home! but things always come up last minute! damnit laaa! HAHA! (: but it's okay- they can be handled! (:
mosaic festival. sweet. (: chalet- i really cant wait for it.
things seem to be getting much more better but at the same time scarier. HAHA! (: it is, really. im just happy. politics. i like politics. politics. (:

boyfriend- i miss you so much! & i had a lot of ideas for our dates. im sorry, love! i love you- know that! (: HAHA!
family- i've been such an annoyance. thank you so much for tolerating all my nonsense. i love you guys so much laaaa! (: you guys rock my socks! (:
friends- we will meet up real soon, yes! sorry for always postponing activities and not being there as much as im suppose to. i treasure you guys a lot! (:

okay- & now im going off to my otherside! (:

a glimpse of heaven.

2008-03-09T08:47:00.000-05:00

HAHA! a long time away from the cyberspace makes me feel like i've missed out on a lot of things!
anyways- The Great Spy Experiment, next! (: YAY! (:
i've got a lot of things to be said- but its early in the morning & im not in the mood. HAHA! (:
this will just be a quick update to show my existence. after which- blogging will continue as per normal. the definition of normal may vary.
i just want to say: i miss my boyfriend like crazy! (:
badminton with noor, anand, shawn, caier on monday!
karthi is flying off on tuesday! i'll miss her!
meet-up with kenghee & the rest- maybe on wed or fri!
KC-trip next week with the deb-or-ahhh! (:
my MI loves! i miss them oh-so-much. im serious. my days in MI were made tolerable cause of them! they are weird in their own way! HAHA! (:
A'lvl results- freaky! i wish you guys got what you wanted/ deserved! (:

& mr. teo kenghee! (:
the only guy who calls me by my second name- idiot! HAHA! (:
happy birthdayyy! (: WOOHOO! (:
thanks for being the great friend that you are. i rem the parting-gift you got me! damn sweet la please! i cried! HAHA! it is still in the same bag that you gave me! you rock please! you take random pictures, random talkings, blank angry-stares- you're such a cool-cool friend! (: HAHA!
may god bless you always. good luck in everything that you do, yes. study well! & congrats on your results! (: YAY! mr. birthday boy! (:does the pic make you look gay?! HAHA! so- next time, take pictures which can show your full face! cool fringeee! HAHA! (:

like you never did.

2008-02-21T18:11:00.000-06:00

i am super tired. i wanted to keep myself busy- but not this busy!

work is going well.
chalet planning is disastrous- but manageable.
praying for the interviews to work out better than expected.
i've passed my year one. thank God for that. (:
SLA needs to be planned.
anand is such a sweetheart; seriously. (:
whatever happened to SAS camp?

YAY! tomorrow is a kick-start for a wonderful project. bless us- even if you dont know what is the project- BLESS US! (: HAHA! (:

Project kickoff tomorrow. (:
Monofone- Saturday.
Fire Fight- Sunday.
Caracal- Monday.
Pre-U Sem meeting- Wednesday.

& i lack sleep. i lack sleep.until the clouds unroll.

2008-02-15T21:45:00.002-06:00

10th- dad. (: you're my hero. (:
tuesday was a great meeting/ outing! (: but its always the usual people- although im not complaining- but yes! HAHA! (: contradiction.
the meeting was at kfc, cine- where most of us were late. then some of us moved on to this very cute, secretive halal restaurant near paradiz center. yes- job searching, CDs browsing were done. food was good- affordable. (: &&& then- we went to play pooooool! (: cool, right?! sharon, hanis, prabhu, luke, wahedah, khalis were the pool-ers! (: HAHA! (: fun fun fun! (:khalis & luke left early though. we played three games. usual- girls versus guys. first- girls lost horribly. second- a tie. third- girls won wonderfully. of course- the guys werent thatttt happy! HAHA! (: ego, ego. we had fun chatting, disturbing each other- embarrassing ourselves! we do more than writing laaaaa! (:
then then- met the boyfriend! (: had a great chat. a wonderful milestone! accompanied him for his job's training. took cab back home! a sweet night. (:
skipped pre-u sem on wed. met the anand. random date! started with breakfast. went to paradiz to play pool; again! BUT- it doesnt open till 12pm- we were there at 10+! HAHA! so- we sat down at the foodcourt, played cards like two idiots! we had loads of fun pleaseee! had his hair cut- loveee! lefy boyfriend at work & came back home! so early! HAHA! (: no pool!
valentine's day was spent well with the family. gambling, movies, food, cooking, jokes, love! YES! (: lovelove. im damn proud of my bros. mother is the most adorable person ever! (:
then todayyyy- was the date with the boyfrienddd! (: WOOHOOO! (: picked anand from work and left to cityhall for lunch! nothing fancy- mac's is good! (: walked, walked, walked around! played bowling! two games- & I WON LAH! HAHA! (: poor anand- lost his skills. HAHA! took funny videos, stupid pictures! (: wonderful! exchanged gifts! loveeeeee! then anand sent me back home. i the love the boyfriend! (: you're such a sweetheart! anand is mine! (: & tom's our 18th! (: that is love! (: yes- i am damn excited! (:
offend the censors.

2008-02-11T20:25:00.000-06:00

my saturday was full of love, fun, laughter, money, gambling, people. (:
the wonderful people: karthi, logan, caier, anand, aliff, shawn, kenghee, kane, stanley, cheryl, arid.
the great place: caier's. (:
start: 4+ pm
events done: pizza-lunch, gambling, gambling & more gambling. the notebook was on channel 5 though.

it was one fantastic day! (: met anand first. went to cck to grab something to eat- i was starving! then met shawn, aliff, logan, karthi. met our way to caier's place. then the shawn & the aliff left us behind and went ahead- whilst we were topping up our cards! idiots- yes! (: then we met them at bangkit or something- the LRT locations' names are weird. in the LRT- while karthi & i were embarrassing ourselves, we met kane! HAHA! (: talk, talk, talk. (:
then met caier under her block with her dog, gabby! so cute but anand & i were damn scared! HAHA! he was ever-ready to runaway whenever gabby approached him. HAHA! went to caier's place- rested for awhile while we order pizzaaaaas! (: YUMMY! & we couldnt wait any longer- we started to gambleeee. blackjackkk, daidee/ taitee. (: paused to eat- then resumed just when kenghee, arid & cherly joined us. (:

the beginning:
early winners: anand, benazir, caier, aliff, shawn.
quiet winner: logan, arid.
great losers: kenghee, kane.

the end:
greatest losers: anand, benazir, shawn, kenghee, kane, aliff.
great winners: caier. caier. caier.
winners: logan, karthi, arid.how depressing can the night end! HAHA! (: BUT- we bloody had fun. (: chinese new year rocks my worlddd la. gambling is bloody addictive! i wanted to stop- but i just couldnt control myself. damnit! caier's sister & neighbours played along with us; at times. & all the while- gabby was freaking me out. anand had fun asking caier all sorts of qns about gabby. shawn wanted to throw gabby's play-ball at me; so that i'll shut up. kane & anand teamed up to make moneyyy- didnt end well, anyways! HAHA! karthi was having fun disturbing everyone. aliff was determined to win like how he did for last year. kenghee was angry! HAHA! kane bets with big moneyy! caier was super gleeful! logan was quietly working his way up. arid & cheryl were super nice & got us fries to eat while we lose/ earn money! stanley came arnd 10plus; after work.
end: 11+ pm
cabbed to semb with anand & logan. logan talks more! HAHA! (: i frightened him at first. dropped karthi at her place first. the remaining people at caier's place was shawn, aliff, stanley, arid, cheryl.
a great saturday with love, love people! (:

& today- met sharon to discuss on the interview qns for caracal, monofone. & now we have fire fight to handle. pre-u sem topics were touched upon too. great stories shared. we did all that in mac's without even buying a single thing from 10.15 till 1.30. HAHA! (: sharon rocks. window-shopping with her before the meeting- for partyyy rendezvous! (: exciting! (:
after discussion- met the super-stressed boyfriend! (: HAHA! (: & yes- with my annoying talks and behaviour- he cooled down. anand is super adorableee la! (: job hunting. some sort. had a good lunch- yes, i was starving! then ramesh joined us. i had to leave then- they continued their search. (:

i cant wait for the mac's picnic with hayl! woohooo! (:
& im very happy that im actually using my organizer cause i realize this year is going to be a hectic one. with great happenings. (: i need my bro to be back soon- HAHA! (: sponsorship please. (:

the day breaks...

2008-02-05T22:28:00.000-06:00

i think it's bloody easy to say 'excuse me'. dont you think so?! damnit!
& also- i think it's common sense to give way when one is carrying thousands of items in a basket.
dumb or what?! (: s t u p i d .

im deprived of sleep. deprivation.
anand & i spent the monday morning together! (: from east coast to dhoby ghaut. fan-tast-ic. (: such an impromptu date! (: boyfriend is great! (:
then he went for work. i went to meet sharonnnn! (: fun fun! (:
had the pre-u sem briefing! productive at the last minute! the education-group is good.
sharon & i went on to meet bona, gibson & surash for pooooool! damn- i lost my touch! HAHAHA! (: not that i had any. but seriously laaa. i think the guys cursed me. but we, girls, had loads of fun! (: my classmates are c.r.a.z.y. so cool ah- (:

had a great chat with brotherrr. loveee! he is funny! (:
mother makes great food. HAHA! (: yes- every mum does. stating the obvious. blabla. (: she secretly pampers me! HAHA! (: i define idiot. (:

training tomorrow. gym after.
research on: education in Singapore (everything), monofone, caracal, fire fight.
valentine's day is coming. & im bloody excited. dance with me! (:
14th, 15th, 16th. (: & if you know me well enough. (:

i miss iffahhhh! & thahasinahh! & hassan! (:

all your pages turn away.

2008-02-02T00:50:00.000-06:00

& yest marks the end of semester two, year 1. (:
it has been a year full of surprises: both good & bad! no surprise to that.

in no particular order:
lavanya- the ever-ready blog-hopper.
ivy- mapleeee.
shi ting- the dramas!
xuefang- online-shopper.
adel- the poor food-buyer!
xiaodan- pretty pretty girl.
lina- clorets!
nadiah- great games-finder!
rui fen- fellow kcian.
teresa- 'irritating sia youuuu! hahah'.
weijie- the oh-so-cool hair!
bona- 'i'll punch you, you know!'
gibson- 'you got a prob with me isit?!'
andy- laugh. laugh. laugh!
surash- best!
weiqi- mah-wah-jong! taitee!
wayne- one great singer.
jiajun- gamer!
kankan- mathematician & scientist- future.
henry- resourceful.
syazrul- boyfriend to many!
syazwan- cool wallpapers!
fadhlin- great stories.
jichuan- disappears!

this class is so different from the previous class. like in a lot of ways. lesser pictures, lesser outings- but we sure did have a lot of fun, yes! (: they rock. the cliche- they've all made an impact on my life- sincerely. i love you all, yea! (: thanks for the wonderful memories! (: such sweethearts! (: keep in touch yeaaa. do not ignore each other. horrible. HAHA! (:

make it last forever.

2008-01-29T22:19:00.000-06:00

saturday- interview with anand. lunch/ shopping with maj & vic.
sunday- marketing with mum. scriptwriting.
monday- pizza hut. poker cards.
tuesday- pool. in conversation with sharon & aishah.
wednesday- briefing.
thursday- meeting.
friday- date with anand.

i'm telling you...

2008-01-25T22:09:00.000-06:00

happy 20th birthday, to my coolest friend ever- majorieee! (:
she's random. she's funny. she has great taste in music & movies. she can totally stone & still be part of a conversation! (:
& i loveee her! (:
the pencil incident in pri sch, my niece flying up in india, little india, post secret, harry potter, your place! - so many memories. she rocks my worlddd! im really glad to have the chance to know her better, thanks to Prefects'.
have a wonderful year ahead babe! i wish for the best for youu! (:

& lunch with maj, nic in town tom! (: cool, yes.
pool with sharon, farhana & iqa today! damn fun. the hockey-thingy in the arcade is such a joy. bukit batok! (: yayy! but damn- i had to spoil the fun! sentosa?! (: they're such loves laaa!
then anand! HAHA! lunch/ dinner. cck lib! coolness. he bought me another of jodi picoult! weee! next shall be nora roberts! every author has a specific style of writing. & it can be seen through out. thus, changes are good! (:
interview shall take place tom. yet to let family know. no replies. damn- i need a reality check! HAHA! (: this sentence talks about a lot of matter- so, no linking up please! HAHA! (:

won't stop until somebody calls the cops.

2008-01-24T21:31:00.000-06:00

hello, my beings! (:
now- i've got a job offer. & i think im going to accept it. boyfriend thinks otherwise.
i just realised im getting myself into a lot of responsibilities even without realising it beforehand. HAHA! i shall thrive under pressure. weeee.
it's about 6 more days. and anand has 2 more papers to clear. & we're free like the birds. almost! HAHA! school is becoming such a drag. we're all coming to school for attendance. won-der-ful! heck. s-i-x is a good number! YAY! (:
my 1st brother is super high. he's being oh-so-generous. which is damn cool for me! i cant wait. seriously. & my mum thinks its cool to make faces at me. seriously. HAHA! & my 2nd bro enjoys giving me 8792 calls while im having lesson.
anand is a sweetheart. he came down to RP with ramesh to study. i was there- which means- minimal amount of studying/ revising! HAHA. anand rocks my world! (: we ate like there was no tomorrow. ramesh was having fun laughing at me. & anand enjoyed making fun of me. i had fun in their company. (: that rhymes laaa! HAHA!
congrats to my dearest cousin in achieving what she wanted- O'lvls! wooohoooo! the anxiety, thrill. it was great. you rock. & this is the part where i say - 'i told you so.'. (:
my tagboard is crazy! (: & i miss benazir bhutto.

kids are victims in this story.

2008-01-21T19:45:00.000-06:00

pastamania with two idiots are fun! (: HAHA! chicken, beef, cheese chicken! HAHA! (: combo C, soda. the usual stuff happened- jokes, laughter, sharing, mocking, annoyance! HAHA! (: they rock my worlddd la. (: WOOHOOOO!
boyfriend is such wanna-be-hippie. HAHA! (: & bestfriend looks drunk. serious. i am the only sane one! (: nevertheless, anand & shawn- rocks lehhh! HAHA! (:
then karthi & logan. fun fun. no pictures to showcase that. but heck- (: great people! gotta catch up with my dearest trackLOVE.
9 more days to the end of semester. yay! (: im desperately waiting laaa! i is wanting to work. & after the ten weeks, i will be starting on my course! crapp la! not looking forward. lalala. the list has been created.
deb is the most craziest person ever! HAHA! (: for no apparent reason- we discussed about our polys' mottos! HAHA! i know- what the! spastics. if only we lived nearby- parkway will be frequented much! HAHA! (:
maj's cool birthday is coming up! (: exciting! (: presents are underway. friends are super precious. esp- secondary school ones. & some exceptional ones.

this is a private show.

2008-01-15T19:32:00.000-06:00

& after so long, template has been changed. pretty happy with it.
i want to explore further. during my 10 weeks. i am planning so much for that just 10 weeks of freedom. seriously- just!
you know- being alone is a wonderful feeling. (: really. you can do absolutely anything & not be questioned by anyone except yourself. sing, dance, talk to yourself! (: i realise i always talk to myself while im travelling to school, coming back home, while bathing, using the notebook etc. & talking to myself has allowed me to make good decisions. HAHA! i sound like a psycho. but heck.
reflective. i think.
pampered girl and always loved, vice versa- my dad. (:
17th month in a day's time. i love you anand. your silly annoying doings & trying-to-be romantic actions- you're love, my anand. (:

i need a skipping rope. i cant wait for badminton- boyfrienddd. & to meet up with my lovely beings then, hopefully. (: barbecue with classmates, maybe?
one more time- im turning twenty! HAHAHA!

so- appropriate. i should come up with a list saying the things i've not done in my teen years. (:

we could watch it fly.

2008-01-10T21:15:00.000-06:00

life has been treating me well. (:
camp was beyond horrible. but we still had loads of fun. (: swimming pool, scoldings/ lecture, rain, tug-a-war, first impression, dodgeball-stressball, discussion, pizza hut! (: it was sweet. (:
thennn- it was national treasure with the boyfriend! (: coolness. i'd like to stress again that taxi fares are suicidal. (: the uncle was pretty rude actually. need to get the license & then snatch the car from bro. (: wooohooo!
all the water-contact made me sick. like terribly. so- i missed two days of school. when they had a lot of fun. shoot me! i am counting down. 15 days of school!
buddy meal with my loveee! i love him so. (:
sitting down & just talking over tuna sandwich and apple crumble is awesome. stunning sharonn! (:
i am going to be 20! what the! it's pretty freaking me out. twentyyy!

heshe can taste ~~his~~her blood.

2008-01-01T14:46:00.000-06:00

happy new year my hunks & babes. (:
let's hope for the best & never give up. welcome in new challenges & gladly defeat them for the good. (:
rock & rolllll. (: HAHA.

2008 is going good.
i've said this before- i think in my 2006's new year post:
two thousand & nine will be here soon. let us be optimistic, yes! wooohooooo! (:

you'll see the other side.

2007-12-30T00:00:00.000-06:00

i realised i've got thousand over photos in my notebook that bloody slows it down. & music. & school work. & all-sorts-of-rubbish. organized rubbish.
1 more day to 2008. i've seen many who do not really fancy 2007 either. horrible. (:
jodi picoult keeps me going. finding links online to watch stuff is torturous.
bro came back from the hongkong! & of course- he came back with goodies. my kinda-santa! HAHA! (: the food wasnt that fantastic though. and my mum said- bring me along & i'll increase the economy. seriously! HAHA! (: see me in singapore- and i dont do that. 3/4 of the time im trying to save money and the remaining 1/4 is spent on thinking how the heck did i spend the money!
did i mention about how i want to have a pre-paid line! HAHA! it keeps me within my budget. okayyy- it might not. but at least it'll be better. and it's yet to be one year for the line that im having. boohoooo. anand wants one too! being anand- HAH! (: BOOKMARK!

OHHH- i went to the airportttt. woohoooo! from jurong east- i am legend- to airport- to bugis. we travelled to the each extremes & the centre. taxi fares gives me nightmares- freaky. how exciting! anand is such a sweeeetheart. & now- he wants to go to the science centre. HAHA! i knowww- but we shall, yes.
& tom- maybe jurong east- ikea. sunday is family/ home day laaaa!

the million things i wanna say...

2007-12-25T11:14:00.000-06:00

merry christmas, my sweet beings! (:
lets all spread joy, love and laughter. for the good. (:

honestly- i preferred last year's. actually- i prefer last year itself. lets hope for the better in the year 2008. 2008- nice ah. surprisingly- i've got some resolutions! so cool! HAHA! (: i shall pray and hope that i will actually do/ follow/ finish them up. (: my favourite year was 2005! o'levels, graduation, friends. next is 2006- relationship, bonding! 2007 sucked actually. HAHA! (: but truly- yesh. in every sense.
i've not met many, many people for god-knows-how-long! crappy, isnt? oh my lord! mum and i watched online movies for the whole day yest! 3. HAHA! greatness, no? (: and i am definitely going shopping when anand gets back! (: HAHAHA! that is today- and no contact from him, yet. i survived! i wonder how am i going to survive during his NS years. and now i can truly understand hayl's feelings! she rocks laaa! (:

airport, please!
goodbye. & enjoy. (:

before the bubble burst...

2007-12-22T13:16:00.000-06:00

happy birthday dad! (:
i loveee you so much. you made me a strong person! thanks for everything yes. i love you a lot a lot. (:

happy birthday to fathiah! (: weeee! (:
all the best and good luck in everything that you do, my girlfriend! (: i love you.
A'levels eh. im sure you'll rock laaa! wooohoooo! finally 18! HAHA! (:

movie marathon at sharon's place! damn funn la! HAHA. there was only 2 of us- BUT we had great fun. the rest couldnt make it. boohooo! ohwells. food was wonderful. her family damn cute la! HEHE. the exorcist, evolution! YESH! (: damn fun. another will be done soon! (: boon lay has funny, weird people. i dislike construction! we ate more than we watched! HAHA! heck.
then met the boyfriend! i lovee him please. met him at outram and then he sent me back home. he's at malaysia now. how horrible. i miss him la. his jokes, sleepy voice, random msgs. hmpf. but yea- he'll be back on tuesday. but still. im missing a part of me! boohooo!
~~fath's place on monday, yes? HEHE! (: chirstmas eve with maj, no.~~
s h o p p i n g , s o o n ! (:

don't need no more.

2007-12-16T22:53:00.000-06:00

happy 16th, my love. (:
i loveee you. and im damn happy for you! (: hugs.

went to the malaysia with my family, together with my cousin. full of fun, laughter, videos, pictures, hide-and-seek, crying, beating! HAHAHA! (: and i cant believe that time has flown past us so fast. my sis and niece will be leaving this tuesday! crap laaa. so- im going to make full use of my time by spending as much of it with them and the rest.
my family isnt strict- they're just over-protective. (: they made me who i am. wooohoooo! (:

anand's an idiot cause he's not sending me our pics since 231985 years ago. how cruel, no. and im going to spend my time editting pics, making videos, burning them. throughout tonight. because- i need to give them to my sis as she's leaving on the 18th.

i hope everything goes well tomorrow. (: candles, sweet. i am going to keep myself busy and pray. you know what- actually, i am lucky. (: i love you all, my sweet beings. (:

i miss hassan mohammed hiqumath haroon & thahasina. dad is love. (:

it's summertime.

2007-12-13T20:19:00.000-06:00

happy birthday, my dearest trackLOVE! (: i love you so much. you rock laaa. the best thing out of Track was you. (: im glad we're great friends now. remember- all those silly times we had. HAHA- crying together! oh my! we've been through a lot and we're still surviving well because we're together! im always here for you yes. can't wait for saturday! HAHA. (: all the best and good luck in everything that you do yea. im so happy that everything's falling into its' places now for you. rock on! HAHA. (: pretty pretty babe!

planning a camp is torturous! and im still suffering. thank the Lord for Sharon. (:
the 3 weeks of holidays starts next week. (: im in lovee! HAHA. one more day- i can do this. HAHA. (: anand- keep me going! HAHA. (:
next week will be filled with super fun activities. but my sister & iffah will be leaving on tuesday! damn sad LAH! shawn will be back on tuesday! HAHA. what the.
goodbye while i enjoy my three weeks with pure fun, joy & laughter. find me. (:

and pray to be only *yours.

2007-12-07T21:57:00.000-06:00

life has been hectic. busy, busy, busy.
i miss my boyfriend like crazyy!

i am going to spend my weekend well. with my dearest family. shopping, please! HAHA.
seriously- im beyond broke!

she thinks she can smile like me. HAHA. she's such a joy. a real sweetheart. (:

can't see me- without you.

2007-12-01T14:31:00.000-06:00

hanging out at karthi's house- oh-so-wonderful. (: with kasturi, shankari, anand. (: watched movies, played monopoly. shawn only came over after i left- he had training! ohwells. AND- karthi's grandmum's cooking is great. (: HEHE. it was kasturi's birthday as well then- 261207 and so was shawn's sis. (: cute!
Flame Awards yest! (: HAHA. it was great- the company, the function. i was so bloody worried that i might trip over my own feet and fall flat on my face on the stage! i think that'll be funny! HAHA! i'll be remembered for that instead for the award. but i didnt. (: lyn was super excited. i was a little nervous. the guy who gave me the award was friendly. HAHA. we had a funny short conversation while i was getting the award. (: sharon, erika, gurprit and i had a little window-shopping trip on the 291207 for the Flame Awards. the theme: International Mafia. kinda cool actually. had a lot of ideas. then met my bro and bought stuff for the function! (: yayyy! (: HAHA. sharon told me i looked like the person who knows all the secrets of the Mafias. HAHA! (: i think that's cool. we were also thinking abt how some interpreted the theme wrongly and came as "_____". HAHA! (: the drama started after the function. I LOST MY PHONE! how clever of me. the student helpers didnt help me much- they didnt exactly seem concerned. ohwells. i informed one of the food caterers abt my situation. and HE FOUND IT! under the buffet table! he rocks- and thus, i shall frequent his cafe more often. HAHA! i was damn relieved and happy LAH! we didnt get to eat much cause almost was gone and i made sharon and erika worried abt my phone as well.
THEN- (: HAHA! dancefloor. with wan, sharon, erika (: woohooo! the songs were good but some werent. oh oh- we had roses on to give ourselves a mysterious-mafia-look. HAHA! (: i know. we had an awesome time! (: yayy! celebrate with me. (: we left arnd 11, walked to the MRT. sharon and i took taxi back home cause we really couldnt walk anymore, all we wanted to do was r e s t . erika took the bus home. (: took pictures. (: and my heels were hurting my feet and me. crap. blisters- all the time. nice heels but painful experience. HAH. (:
4th- shawnnny's leaving to cambodia.
6th- sister and iffah leaving to india.
tell me why all at one shot? AND- anand bought for me disney monopoly! HEHE! (: yayy! he's love. and his friends think im a great girlfriend. HAHA! (: but honestly- anand's the best. (: he actually came all the way down to woodlands before my function yest just to see me. (: i know- my boyfriend. (:
the Mississippi river- she's going dry.

2007-11-25T22:06:00.000-06:00

two more weeks to go for three weeks of holiday! (:
friday- swensens with mr. anand @ bukit batok! all those times we had there! HAHA. wooohooo! (: as much as the place annoys me- i still frequent that place. ohwells. boyfriend is love! (: food was good. company was wonderful. (:
sat- VIVO with DEB! (: yes! after a gazillion years! seriously! and i made her wait! i am so so sorry! and i owe you the photos. HAHA! (: it felt so good seeing her. and oh my gosh- so many things have happened. and we've updated each other! YES! a gazillion updates! (: HAHA! (: saw so many RP-ians. and the corduroy candy is such a happening place for us! deb bought a candy floss which was worth 2bucks and a gigantic cookie for 4bucks. and we spent close to $10 at that place! HAHA! (: candy makes people high- at least for us. (: we've completed VIVO mission! HAHA! we walked all around that place, got annoyed cause we lost our way! there's no Auntie Anne's there! WHAT THE HECK! HAHA! (: our sudden cravings can be dealt with at vivo. parkway- YES! (: we were about to watch a movie- but too many updates, too little time! THEN- of course, pictures; pictures; pictures! more pictures! (: spastic ones, funny ones, cute ones, emo-ones. all types! she takes good photos from the above and the bottom! really! HAHA. i miss her so much LAH! we've decided on where to go for the next two meetings- town and then airport! (: cool yes.
WEEE! (: and then- went to parkway with the family! (: at abt 9plus. no idea why. but yes! when all the shops were closing. parkway has changed so much. my whole family had fun at borders there! just opened two days ago! so cool LAH! (: i am so going on book-shopping this week! ANAND! HAHA! (: iffah had fun! (:
today- since we didnt manage to go many places at parkway yest! we went again today! I KNOW! for the love of the eastside. HAHA. (: and i satisfied my craving for Auntie Anne's today! my family enjoyed too. we bloody shopped at the Body Shop for 100bucks! and i've yet to decide on what to wear on the 30th. bloody troublesome! anyways- i annoyed my mum like a 1000 times. maybe more! i define broke! seriously- argh! the agony of waiting to have enough money before spending it all! arghh! the cycle is never-ending. we had a good talk as a family today. felt good. (: and i miss hassan and thasina! damn! (: DAD! (: and i realised- i do not upload pictures of my family! hmmm... and i shall continue to do so!
i am exploring with blogskins. back to square one.

they keep watching, keep watchin'

2007-11-16T23:41:00.000-06:00

happy 15th! (: you're the love, anand. (:
and i went to meet boyfriend, bestfriend, trackLOVE at boyfriend's place! and my head was throbbing with pain! bloody migraine! and the doctors always prescribes panadols to me. what the heck. even my facilitator said that was stupid. lord!
anyways- first, anand and i went for food-shopping at the NTUC with the little money that we had. shopping with very little money has it's joy & fun. came back home and got straight to cooking! we made a mess and a whole load of noice. shawn said that police might even come by for the noise pollution that we were causing. anand and karthi were partners while shawn and i were the other. HAHA. we argued a lot as partners and all of them told me that i cannot cook! but the end-products were great! (: karthi can prepare mee well. anand can take care of the kitchen's essentials. shawn can cook eggs. ben can clean. we make such a great team.
after which, we played taitee using monopoly's money for one round and then started playing monopoly with whatever money we had. karthi was bankrupt. it was practically a shawn-anand game! idiots! cause they dont see me as a competition. non-sense. and we got tired- so we played other games! I SO WON SHAWN LAH! (:then- anand had to go for soccer. shawn had to go back to get back his keys from his neigbour. karthi had to go out. and i just followed. (: then shawn was invited by anand for the soccer. i wasnt! yup. idiots again. HAHA. (: so- we went with shawn over to his place first where we used his net for issues. (: and his mum damn sweet la! (: THANK YOU AUNTY! and i've yet to meet them. (: oh yes- THANKS SHAWNNNY FOR THE GREAT FAVOUR DONE! to quote the shawn, you're such a shawn! HAHAHA! (: when calls started coming in for anand- we left! HAHA. (:
im serious- spending my time with them resulted my pain to decrease! i love them sooo much. and now i hear iffah crying because my brother is scaring her!
shawnnny was trying to act innocent for the top-left, anand was trying to annoying for the top-right. they were both trying to be gangsters for the bottom-left, and both being idiots for the bottom-right! HAHA! (: and i just wanna let everyone know that- these two guys are the bestest guys anyone can get! same difference! i know who to turn to when i need anything! they bring smiles, laughter, annoyance- everything together! such a package la. i trust them like crazyyy! (: they're such a blessing to me! and whoever missed out or missing out or whichever- sad sad sad. shawn- is the bestest friend! we can practically annoy each other like crap- and still turn to each other for anything. anand- is the bestest boy friend! he reads my mind like a psychic. he's the one who brings out the best in me!
it's a super long post but heck- the best times in my life are worth to be mentioned! (:

you've got me singing.

2007-11-12T00:35:00.000-06:00

the deepavali celebration at karthi-trackLOVE's house was sooo cool! with anandBOYFRIEND & shawnBESTFRIEND. (: the food was great. and aunty did for me henna! (: the family is damn cute laaa! HEHE! (: so sociable and out-going. weee! (: and sadly- didnt get to take any pictures. but it was super fun laa! (: all the nonsense, jokes, laughter. woohooo!
and didnt get to go for class outing. sadly. friday was the only day that i stayed home throughout for this holiday; some what. went down with iffah to meet shawn! (: HAHAHAHA! shawn can seriously take care of children! really. and he told me i cant have kids. but i have fath as my godmum for my kids. how prepared. (: cause i am still a guide in my heart. HAHA! (: we had fun. iffah was scared of shawn in the beginning- the piercings. damn cute laa! (: shawn is nice to kids! HAHA. yes- im not joking.saturday! (: to anand's place. karthi was already there. we ordered mac's for lunch first. and im jealous! i cant overnight! but its okayyy. (: and all of a sudden- we decided to play monopoly. and both of them were 'fighting'. AHAHA! (: i own in the end. with the least amount of property. as i had all the MRTs. (: karthi helped me too. we were both against anand! how cool. (: then shawn came! BOMBS! HAHA! wasted. and DAMN! he won the second round! all because of his hotels. seriously! so annoying! i lost almost everything i had in the last round. anand and shawn got super annoyed when karthi and i always read their Chance and Community Chest cards; and also when we cheat! HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA! but karthi and i can really shout/ scream and kick/ box. basically- hurt others. (: BOMBS! (: then it was home sweet home! (:today was NTUC-shopping. HAHA. with the females. HAHA! (: my sister wont wait in one place for more than 30seconds. really. and then i have to go arnd the whole place to locate her. my sister shops a lot but she thinks a lot beforehand too. so not me! ohwells. i told her to get extra of everything so that when one is being washed- the other can be used. and she laughed! it makes sense what! HAHA! (: i love them all.
school's later. and now- let me fly to my computing world. (:

now- it's me & you.

2007-11-06T23:44:00.000-06:00

and with a fun-filled week comes a lot of body ache, lack of sleep, hunger, blisters and the constant need for cash. (: but i still want more, more, more outings! (:
going shopping with the sister, the mother and the niece damn funn la! (: two days in a row. and one more tom. (: my sister rocks! (: 'buy laa! just buy. nice? buy!' HAHAHA! (: but i feel bad, so i say 'its okayy. i wont use it. nevermind.' but im such a liar! HAHA! (: ohwells. there's still tomorrow. it's at ikea! (: my mum teaches iffah wrong stuff. AHAHAHAH! but damn cool. and iffah is always crying! not always; but whenever she sees something that she wants. not food but toys or the rides! she makes a scene! and my sister makes me get her which makes me look like the bad person! but she's damn cute! (: any 'she' will do. (: my sis can get soooo annoyed, really.
suppose to meet the fathiah tom! ohwells. and then to karthi's house on thurs. class outing on friday. (: saturdayy- i dont know who. so yes. (: sunday is family day! if you know me well- you should know that very well by now. (: but now everybody will know it as well.
i do not tag often. or go to friendster. or facebook. i spend my time reading. im going to get more of Jodi Picoult's books. her books are depressing! HAH! (: but heck. and i want Flowers in the Attic. lalalala.
and anand's having fun with the built-in-sounds of MSN's. how cool is my boyfriend. seriously. (:

but you,

2007-11-03T21:41:00.000-05:00

my holidays are finally here! thank the Lord. (: but anand's ending this week!
and i am sooo looking forward to a week of great fun and love and joy and fun and fun and fun. (: HAHA.
ended the week with a three-hour workshop! three hours! yes- i made it through. with sharon along. yay for that! (: but the speakers were really good. i managed to absorb as much as possible. all those things about journalism and photographyyy. loveee! (: and did i mention that i have finally wrapped my notebook? it's no more that uglyyy anymore! (: mugging- (:
while anand is slogging at work, i am rotting away. actually- he is not slogging. idiot. so- we're technically rotting at different places. (: how cool is that.
i've not met my spastic gang since ever. i've not met my cool gang forever. i've not met my girlfriend at all. i've not met my bestie for so longgg! yes- a lot of 'i've not met's. this is annoying, really. im at least glad that bestfriend, trackLOVE and i will meet at least once every week. going well. (: and anand whenever possible. yayy! (: i love them all. yes, seriously. (:
my family means a lot to me. and i will not trade them off for a-n-y-t-h-i-n-g! as much as they irritate me and get on my nerve. they make me happy so much more! we rockkk la. (:

just the way you are.

2007-10-29T23:51:00.000-05:00

the past:
date with the boyfriend, bestfriend, trackLOVE! (: 21.
date with sharon, farhana, erika. halloween. (:
date with family. (: little india.
date with sharon. youth park. with anand. city hall. (:
the present:
an immediate date with myself is required. as soon as possible. really.
you know what- i lack time management. HAHA. (: nothing new. but yes. just a reminder. thats it, reminder only. not doing anything about it. (:
one more week to holiday. cant wait. (: and anand's having holiday noww! he owes me 701523 dates. (: i love youuu. hugs.
i've got three articles to start on.
the future:

it's a measure of disorder.

2007-10-21T21:49:00.000-05:00

my 230th post. (: how wonderful.
my sister and my second niece are coming over tom! yayyy! (: but i want my first niece and only nephew too. closer to them. (: loveee! i cant wait. but i have to go to school tom. how torturous. really. but anyways, im so excited! (:
well, i think that everybody somehow has some kind of a random tagger/ tag-fight/ quarrel/ argument at some point of time in their life. it's interesting. i've had it a lot of times. HAHA. does that mean a lot of people hate me? YUP! i find all this comical. lets see whether do i get more such annoymous taggers in the future. and i'll be such an old-goat laaa! the big two! woahhh! and people still think and see me as though im 16/ 17. not good! im not behaving according to my age. how crappy. AND- i still have lovely friends, family and boyfriend around me. LOVE! (:
my race is indian. my religion is islam. and my mother tongue is tamil. how difficult is that? seriously. that doesnt mean my dad is a hindu and my mum is a muslim! or vice versa. and then i become indian muslim! what the heck! im indian muslim as a whole, as a family etc. HAHA! but sometimes it is oh-so-hilarious when im explaining. yup. (:
anand said, "ben, i think you get stressed easily.". benazir said, "HAHA. really? i thought i get annoyed easily.". anand said, "yea... that too." HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! (: i love my anand! i was so angry at that point of time, and when he said that- i burst out laughing! hugs! (:

don't play the adamant.

2007-10-19T19:57:00.000-05:00

gambling is bloody addictive and one should stop as soon as he/ she starts to owe another any amount of money. (: just dont gamble- simple.
and i had fun. met shawnnny, caier after school yest. shawn felt gay as usual cause the number of girls outnumbered the number of guys. kenghee left cause karthi and i were late. and in the end, i didnt get to meet my trackLOVE! ohwells. she knows i love her. (:
after caier had her lunch, the three of us went to some void deck to play some games. just to kill time. and we killed much more than time. then mr. anand joined us all. (: the expression on all of our faces were sooo super duper nice la! HAHAHA! (: caier was having so much luck. and i had my occasional luck while anand was very safe. shawn was the worse. the girls rock la- seriously. (: well- caier is the best anyways, im serious! (:
my nails grows in width, not length. how sad. my hair is so thickkk now! oh my! and im now figuring out the many ways to control my hair. fun. (:
my family loves me a lot. and i love them a lot a lot too. (: my life. and to anand- you're all that i've ever wanted. im serious. you rock my life and i know i rock yours too. (: HAHA. stop messing my hair. HAHAHA! im so funny. for this- you have to ask anand. he's truthful. (:
my boyfriend and bestfriend. (: they think they're cool. they forgot im the coolest. and the most happening person ever. loveee. *look at their adam's apples. lord!

the philosophy of...

2007-10-17T22:02:00.000-05:00

my friday evening/ night was great! (: they called, i went! everytime we plan, nothing goes according to it. thats super annoying! i like this. impromptu. (: arcade, cards, annoying, mood-swings, apologies, jokes, pictures! (: i had a lot of fun la! serious! (: and i realised how much i miss them. the bestfriend shawn, the trackLOVE karthi, the aliffffff! (: they rock my world la. we're gonna have more such meetings! and shawnnny was nice enough to walk me back home!ANAND! (: my loveee! (: the 14th was spent oh-so-wonderfully. (: long john's, pool with adli, surash, bona! my boyfriend gave me a ring! couple rings! (: he was so super duper cute when he did so. HAHAHAHA! cuteass. i love him so much! (: the ride back home was love! will always be. my anand is the best! really. ask me! (: and i am missing him. oh oh- saw farzana and balaji. (:
[dear anand,
i love you. (:
with love,
benazir*]

selamat hari raya to all! (: god bless you always.
hari raya and my bro's birthday was celebrated traveling all over singapore to JB! (:

p.s: eleven more weeks for semester 2 to end, 2 more weeks for the one week holiday to come. 10 more days to halloween. forever to get out! (:
i cant wait for deepavali and christmas. thankyouverymuch.

my heart is jumping, it's easy to see.

2007-10-10T21:28:00.000-05:00

061007: bag-shopping dateee with sharon. from bugis to dhoby ghaut. (: LOVE. and then movie dateee with anand at woodlands. HAHA! met the millennians- bushra, huddin, yiyu, sharifah. (:
081007: lailatul qadir. the most important night of all! (:
091007: crazyyy science lesson. (: WRITE! meeting followed by breaking of fast with sharon, gurprit, aishah, wan, farhana, erika.
101007: sweet classmates. (: early khad's birthday celebration over at pizza hut's with sharon, may, khad, aishah, fana; surprise cake! laughinggg session.

111007: mini-photoshoot! cognitive UT! woohoo!
131007: hari raya, my loves. (:
151007: dad! (: brother's birthday.
161007: 14th month. boyfriend.

~~sometimes~~ i get so weird-
i ~~even~~ freak myself out.

2007-10-05T22:36:00.000-05:00

have i mentioned how tired i am nowadays?
i need sleep and plentiful of time away from noise. all kind of noises. all. (:

three weeks of school over. just another 13 more to come.
class is getting more livelier now. yay! (: the guys are really friendly and funny. the girls are sweet and nice.

boyfriend and i are really busy nowadays. he with his work, driving, studies. me with my IG, studies, CE. but i am super glad we can still make time for each other. thank God for the creation of handphones and for its' services.

and i seriously think the whole RP campus should be wireless and the signal strength to be good all the time. it's bloody annoying to get disconnected a million times! sshhh. for handphones too.

hari rayaaa in 7 days. ~~how e x c i t i n g . (:~~

facebook is addictive. and im gonna watch prison break from season one. my classmates are super resourceful. i need a hard-driveee! and a thumb-drive. an optical mouse. laptop cover. my notebook needs more accessories than me.

Sem1'07 class rocks my socks. and that rocks my world. (: love.

but i'm not like them.

2007-10-01T21:22:00.000-05:00

happy birthday deborah teo jun ting! (:
better known as spastic leader who will be retiring soon. HAH.
i hope you had a wonderful birthday and can we meet soon! picnic! (: you're like one of the top greatest friends i've gotten out of KC. and you deserve sooo much- let me give it to youuu. HAHA. dirtyyy? (: as far as we are- it makes me super happy about how we're in the almost same boat almost all the time. (: god bless you always sexayyy! i love you so much! spastics will live on even when we reach 30s, 40s, 50s- forever! HAHAHA. turning 19 on children's day- you're love! (: thanks for all.

happy birthdayyyy nico-lette! (:
my cool gang member! my super cool express friend from prefects'. i miss the times on how we use to practically hate everyone and never set a great example to any! we left our mark. your one-second laughter is classic and is soo damn cool. your random acts of kindness are always appreciated yes. im damn happy we're still in touch. when's our movie marathon? since sec 4 please! HAHA. all the best and good luck in everything that you do yes. im always here for you babe! (: thanks for everything. lets walk thru the streets of orchard in our ever-so cool-attitude. (:

... no me without you.

2007-09-26T21:13:00.000-05:00

h a p p y b i r t h d a y s h a w n s y l v e s t e r . (:
may you always be the same and not change. HAH. i cant believe that i am saying that but yes. it makes you who you are- the annoying, the so-called-cool-hot guy that you are! HAH. (: you're funny though. thanks for everything, bestfriend. (: i wish you the best in everything that you do. take care yes. may God bless you always. (: you rock too- at times! my very first guy friend from MI since the orientation days to lit lessons till being a classmate! so cool. (: HAHA. oh yes- stop the bad habits ya. (:

happy birthday sharonnn. (: although it's tom.
you're the most rocking friend from RP/ SAS. thanks for all the great advices that you give to burn some annoyances. all the best and good luck in everything that you. may the future hold great stuff for you. (: sharing the same thoughts together, with crazy jokes and ideas. i love you babe! thanks for everything yes. once again- im glad we both went for the camp. yay! the lesbian vibes that occurs at times- woohoo!

my friends rock! seriously they do. and they deserve the best! i love you guys. (: a lot a lot. lets keep in touch forever! yay! (: may all you people out there get such great friends like mine! not many does by the way. (:

today is where your book begins.